as of last night everything is cast-molded-fired-distressed-polished-glazed-infused-assembled-ready
there are so many feelings in seeing my completed legs suspended in the test harness
visually they're the same design i had in mind before i came to khorvaire but internally they express everything i've learned since and that's very bittersweet
i've put more effort into making them durable and robust even if damaged because that happens a bit too often here
double deal – the pony who helped medya and i with travel outside the everglow – was right to insist we be ready to defend ourselves
i hated every aspect of adding weapons to my body but it made too much sense to embed a bolt-thrower in each cannon plate
i look forward to when their only use is to drive tent-pegs
but for now i need them and i'm tired of dedicating saddlebag space to ammunition so the new ones generate bolts on demand
i expected to handle all the spell infusions myself but bell and morran wanted to help so i put my trust in them to do the parts they're capable of
i've run every test and double-checked everything and they did a flawless job
not only is this practical learning for them but there is a deep strength of harmony that exists in collaborative effort and i'm so grateful for their friendship
and i'm proud of all of us
i've spent a dozen days sleeping less than usual but i made sure to get a full night so i'm well rested for this
in an hour lem and morran will join everyone at the heart and hammer in observing and assisting if needed and – perhaps most importantly – being supportive
until then medya and i are going to get some quiet time together to mentally and emotionally center ourselves
one hour until i harmonize with my proper legs
i'm so ready