i really don't feel like it but i'm journaling this while it's fresh in my mind
we accomplished our mission
but first i rode a platform down a rope at an angle over rocks that would have looked sharp if they weren't entirely obscured by shadow
then to sneak around the embedded solid steel wall in front of the base relic tunneled us through the mountain itself in a very tight little bubble
medya and i were extra stressed by the time we emerged in a storage room full of weapons
stealth was of top importance so the first thing i did was knock something over to alert some soldiers so we had combat right away and then more combat
then we found the titansuits
they weren't built to look hostile so much as they were shaped with hostile intent – even the curves were angular as though formed by shearing away solid metal
perhaps a d'cannith merrix 2 design?
also they're controlled using a mix of the puppetry rig and ... the mesh spell
that's not what it's for!
sykes made himself known and invited us to the observation deck that looked out over a huge boxy cavern
i started in on the speech i'd planned but when i got to the part about his misuse of my work on harmonization he interrupted – somehow he hadn't even recognized my brand despite obviously reading my paper
then he asked if medya's gauntlets were my work
then he said something about an experiment and aimed a "wand of rust" at her
and the new arms she loved so much
...
crumbled
i was so stunned i think i cast something that halted everyone while i checked on medya
she was physically unharmed but in shock
i told emmer sykes i would see him destroyed but not before i made him carry his share of the weight his deeds added to my heart
the weight he forced the world to carry
i'd prepared a new spell that combined "force trap" and "push" and my plan was to cast it while using that recursion effect to intensify the effect
but i don't remember casting it
i screamed something about the "weight of the world" in sylvan and then i ...
i was so angry i couldn't see anything around me but him
i lost control of myself
according to the team i flared with more magical energy than they'd ever seen come out of me and i used it to pin sykes painfully to the floor
i just ... kept casting that while they fought him
i didn't come back to my senses until i was sure he was dead
spark and bell agree that i was what they call a "hot mess"
bell stripped him of all his artifacts but one was an amulet that captured his essence
before she could destroy it a ball of green flame burst out and raced toward a titansuit
it delivered sykes' naked soul into a terrible new body ... but through a control rig partly based on fiendish magical research
for a few seconds he gloated at us about how he'd made it work but there was a bright flash in the chamber then lots of screaming and blind flailing
only a fiend remained in there
it tried to attack us
spark climbed into another titansuit and i've never seen anything that large move that quickly
she set half of the fiend-piloted titansuit on fire and pounded on it until relic could smash the pilot's chamber open
the green flame dissipated
all was quiet
bell went to sykes' corpse and drew her hammer and made certain he was inert but recognizable ... if only from the shoulders down
the sight should have turned my stomach but instead i only felt numb
i saw emmer sykes destroyed
i'm not proud of what i did but everyone else feels it was justified and i'm not sure they understand why i'm so troubled
i practiced so hard for so long learning to contain and carefully use my magic and then i lost control
after letting that evil person hurt medya because i was too distracted with my own words
he built weapons using my work and i'm still so angry at him
i feel ashamed and i have a lot to think about