i didn't bother to journal it then but 2 days ago someone shot an arrow at spark and narrowly missed
she says it was likely just a "message" to intimidate her but without anything written or any idea who "sent" it all we can do is guess from context and what good is a message like that?
... and what if it wasn't meant to miss?
dealing with ambiguity takes effort
dealing with violence takes effort
dealing with ambiguous violence takes double effort and glitterreed
the rally and registration went well even though the college of balance did their best to discourage folks
one of them got very aggressive toward aejar but when they recognized him as the prince they apologized ... as if that would somehow be acceptable behavior if he weren't?
also vilik toranak sat next to the table and challenged every single registration
it says much about the legitimacy of those in power when they feel they have to suppress the means to disagree
it was loud and some moments were very tense
a third of a year ago i would have been a total panicked mess but today i made it through without losing my composure
in large part this is because i planned ahead and found a relatively quiet space nearby so when i started to feel overwhelmed i could take a break and hide in there to recover
i've come a long way thanks to effort and experience and help from my friends
but i still don't think i should attend the next rally
in today's talk with ploughshare they mentioned getting a letter from herringbone
after the events in thaliost herringbone felt "disillusioned" with the church of the silver flame so they left ... and later they had a dream of a pillar of white light at the "heart of the mournland"
recently spark said a similar dream came to several folks in gears' stable
now i can't shake the worry that this has something to do with the winterwolves
oh well
time for a good night's sleep!