YoCP Episode 12: I Have Missed You

For the longest moment he just stands there, looking at me with an uncertain expression, I can't read.

"I thought so much about the sister, I lost," he finally says solemnly: "I was so... sad and... confused. I built up this idea, that you were out there - sad and missing me too. That you'd be happy if I would just find you."

"I have missed you, Felix... Not one Christmas goes by where I don't see your little face before me. I try so hard to move on, but I just. Can't. Get. Past. It." Oh, God, am I crying? "And now - here you are a-and you've grown so much, a-and I can't believe that it's really you - My brother I've missed so much but could hardly remember. It's just so fucking much!"

I dry my eyes, eyeing the door, contemplating running away again. No. No, he's still just a fucking kid, and I'm the older... the older sister. I should act like it. This time I hug him.

"Come," I say as I hold him tightly. Through small jolts of his body, I can feel him crying too.