Today I left again
... I learned a lot from Dharvious.
But it pains me, that people still look at me with scared eyes.
Dharvious still claims I should stop hiding who I am! Should show what I am, who I am!
I should let my appearance work for me. "Once they sent us away, because they feared us! Now they pay us a fortune, to get scared!"
But I don't want to be feared. I want to be loved... I want to love.
Dharvious thinks, if they fear us, they leave us alone.
He doesn't understand... that I don't want to be alone anymore...
He didn't like that. "You have me! You are not alone!"
But why do I feel lonelier than ever? I am an outcast. A paid one, yes... but an outcast nontheless.
I want to fit in. I want to be accepted... not just tolerated. I don't want to feel alienated anymore. I don't want to be afraid anymore, when I see the looks in other peoples eyes.
I don't want to wait every single waking moment, for them to turn on them. For their fear to overwhelm them, to turn against me.
Dharvious thinks I am naive.... stupid.
Maybe I am... but maybe there is a place, where I can be myself. Just me. Kira. Not Wilkirak the demonspawn. Not The fey's violin. Just me.
I've heard stories about Veja. Where everyone is accepted. Where everyone is free. This is where I will be headed.
Dharvious is not coming with me. He want's to go into the triumvirat. The only place where demons like us, can truely be free... No... not there...
If I leave now, he said, he would no longer think of me as his own. I would just be one of the many people who left him. Who disappointed him. I can see the hurt in his eyes...
I don't want to leave him... but I have to.
I left in the middle of the night. All I left was the violin broche he gifted me a few weeks agon... and I stole his earing. Maybe I shouldn't have done that... But i need to have something that reminded me of him. He was my only friend. I love him...
And I will miss him...
Kira's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Today I was born
4. Rufsitêa 3255 n.U
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Today I got a new father
14. Abeqîm 3268 n.U.
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Today I got a new brother!
26. Sihibtêp 3269 n.U.
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Today I left alone
9. Nirav 3271 n.U.
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I discovered something...
3272 n.U.
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Today I was born
4. Rufsitêa 3255 n.U
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Today I met someone
3273 nU.
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Today I left again
3277 n.U.
4. Rufsitêa 3255 n.U
14. Abeqîm 3268 n.U.
26. Sihibtêp 3269 n.U.
9. Nirav 3271 n.U.
3272 n.U.
4. Rufsitêa 3255 n.U
3273 nU.
3277 n.U.
The major events and journals in Kira's history, from the beginning to today.
Today I left again
... I learned a lot from Dharvious. But it pains me, that people still look at me with scared eyes. Dharvious still claims I should stop hiding who I am! Should show what I am, who I am! I should let my appearance work for me. "Once they sent us away,...
05:29 pm - 25.11.2021Today I met someone
I sat on my campfire as a horned devil approached me! At first I was scared shitless. But Dharvious is actually pretty nice! He's a traveling bard, looking for a better place to.... just be hinself. I can relate to him a lot... but he looks very sca...
05:14 pm - 25.11.2021I discovered something...
... I appear to have some sort of magic? Today I saw a hunter. He almost shot me, when I hid in the bushes. But he stopped and saw I was a human. He didn't look at me weirdly. Not like the people back home. He even said I had pretty brown eyes that re...
04:51 pm - 25.11.2021Today I left alone
It's for the best... I am sorry Makhusu. I am sorry I am going without you. But you should not give up the life you are about to gain. Not for me... I love you......
04:43 pm - 25.11.2021Today I got a new brother!
Dhabnu is the cutest! He is so small! And his hand so tiny! He looks like Paqanu. I can't wait see him grow up!...
04:38 pm - 25.11.2021Today I lost my father
... Es tut mir leid Papâ... ... Ich hätte Fêkaên töten sollen... so wie Mutter es wollte... Bitte vergib mir......
04:34 pm - 25.11.2021Today I lost my father
... Es tut mir leid Papâ... ... Ich hätte Fêkaên töten sollen... so wie Mutter es wollte... Bitte vergib mir......
04:34 pm - 25.11.2021Today I was born
GAGA GUGU...
04:32 pm - 25.11.2021Today I left home
Today I left.... and I do not plan to return....
04:28 pm - 25.11.2021Session 21: Sturm auf hoher See
03:41 pm - 25.11.2021Ich hab nen neuen Umhang!
03:33 pm - 25.11.2021Erstes Date
HJeute hab ich mit Riya getanzt ...
03:31 pm - 25.11.2021Session 21: Sturm auf hoher See
03:22 pm - 25.11.2021Session 21: Sturm auf hoher See
03:18 pm - 25.11.2021The list of amazing people following the adventures of Kira.
Social
Birthplace
Aqaska, Dorf in der Theokratie
Wealth & Financial state
Kira ist nicht reich und macht sich auch nicht viel aus Reichtümern.
Ihr wertvollster Besitz (sentimental) ist die alte Geige ihres Vaters die durch Welkirak auf magische Art und Weise wiederhergestellt wurde. In einem Traum wurde sie auch von Âtkirak gesegnet, wonach die Geige von alleine spielen kann.
Religious Views
Kira wuchs, wie üblich in Tiapkhuqiq, mit der Uqiqsureligion auf. Aufgrund von ihren schlechten Erfahrungen mit deren Anhängern, verlor sie jedoch das Vertrauen in den Glauben und begann stattdessen ihre Vorfahrin Welkirak zu verehren. Nach dem Besuch des Tempels der Blumenbringerin, richtet sie auch Gebete an Zarfusân und Akaisiwe.