Session 18: Callum's Reflection

Zora's words have always given me pause, particularly when they're directed at our past. I look back on those days when I wasn't there. The things I didn't say. Or couldn't because I was gone. I see how much that absence has hurt her, and I'm ashamed it's taken me this long. For too many deluded years I was under the impression that by leading my foes away from her and her mother that I was doing the right thing.
 
Wrong.
 
Even now, by doing the "right" thing, I realize I only keep erring. It was only when I included her that I started seeing things clearly, and I pray it's not too late for me to mend the damage I've done. I'm proud of her. Truly. And I hope to earn her respect as well, even if I'm somewhat concerned over the path she's pursuing with this whole "Black Viper" persona she's maintaining. Impressive, really. She's accomplished quite a lot. Aiming for more. Just don't get caught, you little shit...
 
Anyway, she was who I was thinking about when I went along with Kal, and I'm glad that my debt to the devil is paid, even if I know he'll call again. Done running though. I made the mistake of letting him back in once, but Zora led me to the truth. For her sake, I'll confront him, deny him, and maintain my dedication to Torm. Only to him does my loyalty lie from now on.
 
Kal got what he was looking for. Even if it unsettles me and a few of the others, I'm glad if anyone is choosing to meddle in the affairs of demons, it's the brightest among us. Can't match his wit. I'm hoping no denizen of the Abyss or Hell can't either. Betting on it, in fact. I feel bad for the divide it's caused, though I hope that can be mended in time. Orion particularly. Knowing the truth of what happened has given me pause, though it deepens my resolve to never leave him again like I know I can never leave Zora again either. My family won't go without me anymore, even if we all play our own dangerous games.
 
Now we're on to the Cassalanter affair, and I'm not sure what to expect, though my instincts say this is going to be a tough fight. I have faith Torm will guide me through. This noble house is entrenched with deals and workings of the worst kind, but I pray they're not beyond reason. Whether it be by my sword or by my mercy, I pray we can save the innocence left within that household, purge the evil that corrupts it, and maybe find a way to ensure Glasya's roots in the material world never take hold again.
 
Ambitious to be sure. Yet I remember what I once was. In Heaven and in Hell. Ambitious was the very least of the endeavors I pursued in those lives. I don't intend on changing that now.