Session 15: Nomad's Reflection

...Maybe I should be writing this in the assumption someone else will eventually read it. Between Honorine and Zora...
 
Who am I kidding? I'm glad they did, especially given what the end result was. And I'm truly sorry, Zora. I couldn't let a friend die for me. Still can't. Especially now, given what I know. And if anyone reads this-
 
(Blood spatter. Illegible.)
 
They brought me back. Brought me back to my Morning Light. Did all of this. For me. Not that I didn't think we weren't friends. I know there are some who would probably just consider me a colleague, or so I thought. But after this...I meant it when I said they've done something for me I don't think I'll ever be able to repay. Not for my sake either. Maybe one day, if they have a family of their own and a daughter or son, they'll know. They saved me from a fate far worse than anything I've ever known, and I'm not talking about going back to Hell either.
 
I have friends again. Maybe even family beyond Orion and Zora. Despite my best efforts, it would seem. And I'm not sure how to tell them as much either. But I guess they'll just end up reading this at some point anyway, so, there you go, whoever's reading this. What you did will mean more than you know.
 
And now...Torm isn't listening to me. Still answers my calls and grants me power, but forgiveness is beyond me. At least for now. "Act for good as you see it." I won't justify what I did. I don't regret it. I acted to safeguard my friends. But I recognize it gave the Devil and evil a foothold, and for that, I must pay the price. As I ponder Torm's teachings and decrees and consider my future and that of my friends who have come to mean far more to me than I've told them, I consider something now. Something from my past I thought would be a regret forever.
 
Tyreal died for me, and I thought that the greatest injustice of all, especially to the noble Solar who embodied justice itself. But what did he see that I didn't? What did he see that was worth sacrificing so much for? I know now there are angels with differing goals than mine, some of which might even bring me into conflict with them. But Tyreal gave up justice itself to me that I might be freed. Justice offered itself for Wrath...
 
Which is needed now?
 
I can't be the angel I once was, but now I know that doesn't mean I need to be something less. Just different. "Act for good as you see it..." Justice and Wrath combined...
 
What does such a creature look like, especially acting for good as he sees it? My life returned to me, the circumstances revealed, I intend to find out.