Sun 19th Jul 2020 05:46

I Hate This

by Jean Capstone

Let 'em down again. The goddamn monsters are starting to fuck with my head. I dropped that first gnoll and something took me over, made my body not mine. I woulda walked into killing myself if Crestin hadn't thrown that net on me. I got one shot off - one! Before I turned into a fucking zombie. Sifa pulled me out of it just in time to see that demon clawing its way in here. Keph was frozen right in front of the thing, so I figured, shoot the fucking monster, and my goddamn gun jams. The only thing I could do was grab Keph under the arms and drag him out of its reach.
 
Powerless. That's how I felt. Fucking powerless.
 
Everyone else killed the demon. I guess they killed the big gnoll fucker. I was too busy sucking my own fucking dick to notice.
 
I can't keep being this weak. My mind broke like a twig with the slightest prodding. I'm gonna get these guys killed if I can't get my fucking shit together. No more weakness. No more failure. Gonna go see Rufio, try and find something to shore up my weak will.
 
I'll be damned if its me that makes this guys die. They're my guys. Mine. I'm gonna keep 'em safe, and that means keeping them safe from me.
 
If that fails, there's one other way to do it.