A Spiritual Journey, a Trojan Turkey, a Book in Duckburg, and some Dark Thoughts

NOT IN MY PHONE (physical journal)
So, now that things are back on track, I took the drugs that Vanellope gave me... and it wasn't exactly the spiritual journey I was hoping for. I actually sneezed right in front of Namine, and I explained what I tried to do. She was understanding (good thing too I was scared not going to lie). But she told me a key piece of information. I'd have to face a near death experience. That's the only time they had a direct contact connection happen. And also, if/when it happens, Kaxne (Kaen's nobody) will know my location, and vice versa, which might be dangerous. I'll keep that in mind, maybe attempt it when I'm more experienced. She also told me to talk to Kaen if I see him wandering around, to tell him to come to her office. It felt like she didn't want me to seek him out though... strange. I don't know if it's because she's worried or she feels like she's putting something on me. Anyway, I'll keep this in mind as I go forward.
 
Oh, and back to that Spiritual Journey for a moment, I trusted Leo to help me. He was actually very helpful... but things took an interesting turn.
 
So I don't remember anything of what happened, but when I awoke, I had a stitch in my ass and apparently I promised Leo to convert Pilgrim to Halloween after a massive Thanksgiving Broadcast. Giving him credit where credits due, the song wasn't exactly pleasant. Nonetheless, a promise is a promise, plus I owed him, no way I was going to let him down.
 
We conducted the heist, and it failed, Leo was charmed by a weird song called "Fruit Salad. Yummy Yummy." Never heard it before. Terrible, yet oddly catchy. Anyway, he got charmed by his worse enemy (Pilgrim), and his girl Noelle ditched the troop to join their study group.
 
Leo was pretty shaken up after that... and he locked himself in his room for a good week and a half. I left candy at his door all week hoping to cheer him up. When he came out, he was different. His wild side was completely gone. He'd pretty much given up on his crazy ambitions... dude got hurt hard. I feel for him. It's almost unsettling to see this difference. But I suppose the bright side is he won't be causing any trouble at night... but I miss it... I really do.
 
Leo...
 
Anyway, in other news. After Leo and Catherine met, we got sucked in to this crazy comic world of superheroes. It was SUPER cool and I wanted to check out more. So, Duncan took us to Duckburg to find one of them in Professor Scrooge's vault. It was great, but I wasn't prepared. Oh, and Darius was an asshole. Hayato and I were keeping him in check so he wouldn't go sticking his nose where it didn't belong, and I could tell it was fucking with him hard.
 
We eventually made it into the comic book. I had a lot of fun at first, but then things took a turn. I almost killed two of my teammates by trying to use a Thunder spell with a massive thunderstorm that was brewing over the city. I was doing it because Darius, being an ass again, tried to ditch us and follow his own pursuits, taking some sort of spacecraft, flipping us all off of it (Ephraim managed to hang on). We're a team asshole. We stick together (says the guy who unintentionally tried to kill him and Ephraim when aiming for the ship he was flying but not being ready to control ungodly power... yeah). Plus, in a world of technology, there was no way in hell I was letting that happen. Anyway, I apologized to Ephraim for what happened, he thankfully came out unscathed.
 
After that, I stabilized Darius, because I wasn't going to let him die. I just wanted to teach him a lesson about leaving the team. Duncan went to give him a health potion, and he and I had a fight. Duncan was saying we'll need all the help we can get (and as much as I hate to say it, he was right), but he had no idea who Darius was, what he was capable of, and I told him as much. This isn't his squad, he doesn't know the dynamics. That said, I conceded and we gave him the potion. He got up and I told him that's what'll happen if he goes off and does his own thing again.
 
And then something crazy happened... Duncan said "please" take us where you're going and he lept up and let us go with him... IS THAT ALL THERE IS TO IT?! GAH. Ok. Fine. Sure. WOW. It was THAT EASY. If only I had learned that sooner. The conflict was resolved, but for some reason... I began having these dark thoughts... I wanted to punch Darius and Duncan... a dark part of my mind told me that Duncan should've stayed out of this and I should tell him as much... but thank goodness I had restraint. I don't know what would've happened after that. I felt the same thoughts appear when Scrooge gave us Sea Salt Ice Cream... REALLY got on my nerves, but he was just an old man.
 
The question is, is that voice Kaxne's, or a dark part of my own mind? I need to keep an eye on it. I can't fall to darkness. I've got so much left to do. And I can't let my mom and brother down.
 
Anyway, we completed the mission, BARELY, wow these people are powerful. That guy in the iron suit, Tony I believe, he was super cool. Also, we saw Ephraim enter his beast form... it looks badass but something tells me it won't exactly be friends with us. Something to keep in mind.
 
But what's worse is that Catherine came to us after the mission PISSED. Because apparently as we collected the stone, that means that the process has already started to grant anyone whatever they wish. If these books fall into the wrong hands, poof. I don't know if that's just going to affect the comic world or ours too, but either way, trillions could die... damn. Maybe since we started this, we should finish it though. Find the other books and maybe we can get to them before someone else, and then we can reset the stones, like nothing ever happened. But still, I'd have to convince the team of this. We'll see. It IS a lot to risk, especially while we're all still freshmen. Facing off against that man with the Mind stone was nightmarish, and he wasn't even using his full power. But hey, no stone unturned. Besides... maybe through these comics, I could face my near-death experience and get some answers on Kaxne.
 
Be careful Jazpar. Your thoughts may be against you. But still, like Rowan said, I can't be so ready to accept consequences. Sometimes it's better to act first and apologize later.