This is a lot to process

NOT IN MY FUCKING PHONE
I'm still trying to process all this, but I knew what I did when I tried to listen in on Namine and Roxas' conversation, and consequently walked in for more details. And frankly, at this point, there's no time to hide in ignorance.
 
Here it is... I'm a Nobody.
 
That "blip" of four years I was gone... I was dead, right there in that mansion, hence the scar on my cheek. Namine was trying to restore me all that time, all my memories, and damn she did a good job. I'm very thankful to her for saving me like that. But my heart is an interesting story. It's still out there... in TWO places.
 
Not only did my heart become a Heartless... it was also stolen from me, by another Nobody, one who belongs to Kaen, a student of Hall Twilight, a nobody he is not aware even exists. I have major suspicion of the Double Hearted concept, as this boy brought up that he was offered a deal by the "Boy in White."
 
At the end of the day, he appears to be rogue, with the goal to find his birth parents, just like Kaen (He's an adopted son of Namine and Roxas). I remember studying with Kaen. He's a good kid, a little quiet, but yeah. There's a main difference between Kaen and his nobody, he has my hair and eye color.
 
Anyway, from what I 'm hearing... there is no way for me to get back those 4 years. They're gone. All I can do is move forward, and figure out what to do about my heart.
 
RAW NOTES
The boy: "Alone in my endeavors" "I 'got' a heart don't I?" "If you want me to join you, I need to know about you. I've seen your true colors." "Had a talk with the boy in white, offered something similar. Offered grand things. What do you offer me?"
 
ARE THERE TWO KAEN'S??!!!!! He doesn't know about Daybreak. "You know I can't go there."
 
Mentions of Xehanort (Terra Xehanort, hair and eyes changed color) possibly being this version of Kaen. WAIT. KAEN HAS A NOBODY?!
 
Also, Efraim's brother Adam is also part of this transaction. Possibly having us being connected to the 7 pieces of light?!
 
"JAZPAR LOOKS LIKE HE DID WHEN HE WAS HUMAN. THERE'S A SCAR, BUT THAT COULD'VE BEEN FROM THE INITIAL HIT?"
 
"How is he (Jazpar) able to... he's just like us." "Kaen's nobody went a different route." "SHOULD WE TELL JAZPAR?" "He doesn't even know what he is. He still thinks he's human."
 
So... I'm a nobody... and Kaen has a nobody... he stole my heart and I died in that mansion. To get my heart back... I'll have to kill my heartless... and him, and when that happens, I'll be overcome with all the emotions he's gone through, his hopes, dreams... I don't approve what he did, that was MY heart, NOT his... but... I understand at the same time... I don't know what to do... I need to get stronger.