I will never understand why our outings end with me standing in between a strong opponent and those of our group. It’s an exhausting endeavor to continuously save those who should be competent enough to hold their own in a simple battle, but I have been wrong before about people’s abilities. This anger is fleeting, but after being nearly beaten in battle by an orc, I think I have every right to harbor some anger.
We had traveled back out into the tunnels to secure some of the special metal that the dwarf required, but we somehow left without anyone that knew about the metals we were looking for. I should have known that was enough to set the entire adventure up for failure, but our ability to keep moving forward in the cavern outweighed anything else. So we set off, for what we could only believe to be an easy journey, but it was one of our most dangerous outings in the Underdark thus far.
In my anger, I seem to have forgotten what happened up to the point where we saw the witch. We knew she was attempting a deal with vulgar creatures, but anyone with half a brain would know not to meet orcs on even ground, let alone by oneself. It was only a matter of time before her deal turned sour, and that it did, but at least we were there to intervene.
As a battle began, I found myself in the fray with the orcs, the fighting instinct taking over any reasonable thought. I could hear my father's voice in the back of my mind telling me best how to fight these brutes. I followed that advice, but that did not stop me from sustaining my own deep injuries. Those injuries is where my anger stemmed from, but I couldn’t let the anger fully cloud my mind.
In the end, the witch did repay our kindness, but our discussions while the others slept may have unnerved me a bit. She spoke of a dark knight, one who sought to save others at the price of his ruin. While we have similar ideals, I do not believe that I am like the paladin she spoke of. The Knights of Yggdrasil bring hope and light in the never ending darkness. That is the oath that I whole-heartedly believe. I will try not to take her words to heart, but they may remain nagging in the back of my mind.