Dear Eversong...
I don't know what it is they see in you.
They talk *so* highly of you, you know. About how much they miss you and adore you and how great you were for them. How you inspired them. You traveled with them for less time than I've been here and you already made *that* much of an impact...
I hate people like you.
I hate how you're still able to see whatever light is left in this fucked up mistake of a world. I hate how you, too, are apparently victim to a system that takes advantage of you, but instead of it breaking you, you rose above it — you live despite it, in spite of it. I hate your infectious optimism. I hate all the generosity and heart you have to give. I hate how you've been a positive force to those you walk beside.
I lied. I know exactly what they see in you.
They see hope. Warmth. Love. Inspiration.
I hate that you're everything I wish I could be.
I hate that you're everything for them that I'm not.
Nova's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Darkness Descends
26 Jan 2022 05:34:11
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The Boy and the Well
01 Feb 2022 09:23:00
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Ghosts of All My Guilt
08 Feb 2022 02:32:00
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Song of Oblivion
05 Mar 2022 08:36:56
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Heart Made of Glass
01 Apr 2022 06:10:52
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Peddler of Dreams
30 Apr 2022 01:06:06
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Still, We Rot
01 May 2022 07:09:16
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From The Outside
04 Jun 2022 12:48:38
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Dark Mirror
20 Oct 2022 07:45:15
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Starved
26 Oct 2022 03:53:24
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I Gave Them Blood
03 Nov 2022 05:25:39
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Conversations With Ghosts
28 Nov 2022 01:52:45
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Fernweh
16 Dec 2022 03:31:12
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Dear Eversong...
18 Sep 2023 09:37:23
26 Jan 2022 05:34:11
01 Feb 2022 09:23:00
08 Feb 2022 02:32:00
05 Mar 2022 08:36:56
01 Apr 2022 06:10:52
30 Apr 2022 01:06:06
01 May 2022 07:09:16
04 Jun 2022 12:48:38
20 Oct 2022 07:45:15
26 Oct 2022 03:53:24
03 Nov 2022 05:25:39
28 Nov 2022 01:52:45
16 Dec 2022 03:31:12
18 Sep 2023 09:37:23
The major events and journals in Nova's history, from the beginning to today.
Darkness Descends
Well. For the first time in a while, I found what I was looking for. Definitely an interesting lot, as Draconia said -- that much is true. Unfortunate that I missed out on the two weird elves, but whatever. Woulda loved to mess with them a bit and pop ...
05:32 am - 26.01.2022The Boy and the Well
Ma sucked shit at telling bedtime stories. "Once upon a time there was a leper boy and a well in a forest and he was told not to drink of it but he did and everything was bad forever, the end. Now go to sleep Novum, your studies begin at daybreak on th...
08:22 pm - 01.02.2022Ghosts of All My Guilt
i killed them i killed them i killed them all ALLOFTHEM i had no choice YESYOUDID i had no choice THEREISALWAYSACHOICEANDYOUCHOSETOKILL burning flesh MELTINGFROMTHEIRSKELETONS i hear their screams THEYNEVERSTOP i wish ...
02:32 am - 08.02.2022Song of Oblivion
I don't sleep often, and when I do, it isn't well. I tend to spend my nights lying awake thinking about all the ways I fucked up in life and what I might choose to undo if I had the power to do so. Shit makes me laugh — where in the hells do I even s...
08:36 pm - 05.03.2022Heart Made of Glass
On active duty, you aren't allowed to return home much. Things like holidays and namedays just become regular days that you learn to forget about. The duty is you and you are the duty. Just one of a number. But once a year, after the first snowfall, tr...
06:10 pm - 01.04.2022Peddler of Dreams
Xerrakir is just like every other self-professed "good soul" that I've ever met. Listen, don't get me wrong. Guy's got a good heart. I'm not gonna sit here and deny that. But I genuinely think he's gotta be either stupid, naïve, or both, cause there's...
01:06 am - 30.04.2022Still, We Rot
I fucking hate this new guy. As if associating with a two parts sex obsessed, two parts oblivious, and one part suspicious band of imbeciles wasn't bad enough, life saw fit to spit in my face and just chuck a god into my midst. Of ALL the fucking thing...
07:09 pm - 01.05.2022From The Outside
[[ooc post]] If I had to ask any of our characters a question, I think I would ask Adria anything pertaining to her druidic powers; what does she aspire to be? What goals does she have in mind for this power? What does she hope to learn? Why did she pi...
12:48 am - 04.06.2022Dark Mirror
I had a feeling August was more than he let on. Outside of the fact that I've never run into a changeling so far (that I'm aware of), this discovery doesn't surprise me. I *know* magic—it's probably the only thing I'm sure of in this world—and I kn...
07:45 pm - 20.10.2022Starved
I often hear people talk about love, but if someone asked me about it, I don't think I could ever offer an answer. I don't know what love is. I don't know that feeling. What is it supposed to feel like? I've never known. Everything in my life has ex...
03:53 pm - 26.10.2022I Gave Them Blood
It always starts the same way. Fire. Everything on fire. Smoke so thick and dark it coats my lungs. Oh, the mercy it would be to suffocate. Screams. Bloodcurdling. Names crying out for other names, pleading, begging, desperate. Wet gurgles. Th...
05:25 pm - 03.11.2022Conversations With Ghosts
I cast my weary gaze across the grass and regard the group from a safe distance. I wonder who that safety is for—me or them? Am I keeping them safe from me, or myself from them? Muddled feelings that I can barely separate out anymore. Everything has bec...
01:52 am - 28.11.2022Fernweh
There's a place that exists in the deepest reaches of my mind. Somewhere I created....I don't remember when. Or why. But it's there. It's been a long time since I've seen it, and to be honest I think it's long since been abandoned. It's nothing like wh...
03:31 am - 16.12.2022The list of amazing people following the adventures of Nova.
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