A disconnect, causing disbelief of one's own death
She said she'd wake me up for the sunrise. She always woke me up so we could watch the sunrise together. She doesn't know where I am, and I can't find her... I need to get back home, she's probably worried. I need to get home! Let me go!
An intentional part of Synthacrosia's design is the fact that it strips a select few memories from each new arrival. In particular, the memories nearest to the soul's death. The intent is to ease them into the afterlife. Abruptly finding out that they've died can be quite trying on some folk, and Locorin designed Synthacrosia to avoid that as best it could. The Tower of Souls was intended to be the happiest post-death existence it could be.
Memories will be taken from a soul upon their entry to Synthacrosia. The tower, through whatever machinery is contained within the walls, somehow knows which memories to take, and when to return them. Over time, it will drip feed select memories back to the newly arrived soul. Hopefully, they'll be in a place where they're ready to accept these memories and revelations. This process sadly goes wrong sometimes. Souls who have died a particularly hard death, via betrayal or disease, or having left unfinished work behind, occasionally suffer from what is known as Dissillusions. As the tower slowly attempts to return the souls memories of death back to them, they reject it, fully believing themselves to still be alive.
DeathMost often, Dissillusions are brought on by particularly jarring deaths. The kinds of memories that one would find hard to face, and instead choose to repress, or outright deny. Souls who have died violent deaths at the hands of those they trust are among the more likely to suffer Dissillusions. Children who suffer any sort of violent end are also at a higher predisposition to suffer from Dissillutions. Aside from pure violence, lonely and unexpected deaths also form the sort of memories that can be hard to come to terms with. Occasionally someone will die in such a freak way, that they themselves will find it unbelievable. They'll play it off as some sort of disturbing practical joke being played on them, and be utterly convinced there's no way possible that they've died. Dissillitions stemming from these types of repressed memories can be among the hardest to come to terms with.
UnfinishedHaving unresolved business causes Dissillusions at a lower rate than violent deaths. However, when it happens, it's usually much harder to witness. Dissillusions of this variety usually come about when a newly deceased soul has a sick relative they were taking care of, a new love in their life, or a big moment coming up soon for them. Whatever the source may be, their prior life was so focused around it, that when they die, they cannot let it go.
Get the FUCK out of my WAY! I need to get medicine to take home. I just need a little bit more to take home!
- Chronic, Acquired