Lumsday, 28th of Shadow 211 EoL
Dear Diary,
we are now in the middle of our journey from
Adanum to
Sedem Lux.
Drake and I are enjoying our time very much... you know what I mean ;) No obligations, no fights, nobody to annoy us. Just the two of us and the vast ocean all around us. It seems perfect.
I think a lot about my future (well of course our future, but I need to also concentrate on myself right now). Will Drake's mother accept me? Maybe even like me? It seems, that she won't be very happy about her son dating somebody who is not human. This is one thing that scares me. I asked Drake to first visit her on his own, and prepare her for me. He liked that idea. I really hope that this will work out.
We'll first live in the Wolfsden as long as it will take us to find a place. I really hope that I'll find a job very soon to help Drake support our living. He's so generous, but I don't want to depend on him, I want to be able to make a living on my own. I want to be more grown-up and independent.
The more I think about it, the more I feel like I've already grown up. I'm less bitchy and I can stay calmer. The best example is a part of the conversation I had with
Shirel right before leaving Adanum. He told me that I was like a sister to him. I thought: "WTF? We're nothing like siblings! You are more like an awkward, annoying acquaintance."
BUT I did not say that! I reacted like a grown-up and changed the subject. I'm quite proud of myself.
I also had a more serious conversation the other Day with Drake. I'm still shocked about what
Yelena told me about her fate in Sedem Lux... I am afraid that something similar might happen to me. This is why I told Drake about the whole thing. Maybe this was wrong. Maybe it was a breach of trust towards Yelena, and I am sorry for that! I just want to feel safe, to feel protected. So, I needed to tell Drake what I need to be protected from. Drake kind of surprised me with his reaction. He told me that he would take care of the situation and "avenge" Yelena. I was not excited about his idea, but he promised me to not put himself in danger. He told me that he knows the right people to pay the warden and the guards of the prison a visit... I hope I didn't make a big mistake here.
Now I am full of hope, excitement, and fear for the time ahead... we shall see what the future brings.
Love, BB <3
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