The Transferability of Surgical Skills into the Profession of Murder

I think the chip took hold again. No I don't think, i know..... but, its best I don't dwell on it for too long; even letting my thoughts drift down that path for a moment brings on a sickening pain.
 
Pain I'm afraid has become my constant companion in this miserable place. The little foray into espionage was not the opportunity for excitement and rebellion that I had envisaged. We achieved what was asked of us although I have deep concern that the price was simply too high. For one who prides himself of cleanliness in mind and body I now carry stains that cannot be removed. The work on my shoulder was exemplary, of course it was, I carried out the surgery myself! But then you see that very same skill is now responsible for the death of an innocent. Let us revisit shall we? The skills of a surgeon, turned to espionage and then twisted once more to become a bringer of death:
 
Intellect - A finely honed mind, with the observation and keen insight that despite the anger and frustration knew precisely what it was doing.
 
Precision - The cut was clean, too clean, a scalpel edge incision that would have too easily led back to my nanotech. I had to "dirty" the wound, I had to try and cover my tracks.
 
Technological Insight - My own hand could not have inflicted such a wound. Aphrodite gifted this technology to me to save lives not to end them.
 
Subtlety and Diplomacy - ............
 
Ruthlessness - well, yes... I think this one writes itself doesn't it.
 
I swore an oath when I began my medical studies to abstain from intentional wrong-doing and harm. It would be easy to blame the chip, easy to blame circumstance and the "heat of the moment" yet in truth I know I acted with malice aforethought. He had a family, friends, he loved and was loved in return and I not only ended that but caused such trauma that will ripple across generations. I know this, I may not have facts to support it but deep down I just know.
 
This stain.... this is one I am going to have to learn to live with. I am resolved now though that I cannot continue to live with the chip. It must be... I have to.... I.....