Remember - (4/4)
Let me tell you the story of someone who has long since been dead.
There once was a young girl who went by the name Holly Rosea Alcae. However, her parents were quick to call her Du or Two when she was successfully created.
Two had the appearance of a ten-year-old, though her intellectual capabilities are years more advanced. Just like the girl she was a clone of, Two was a powerful psionic, who felt empathy to the people around her and had the ability to crush them with her mental prowess if she desired. Due to her being younger than One in physical and mental capabilities, it meant she was easier to control. This time, they didn't hasten her development.
Two was not homeschooled, but instead attended elementary school for a few years, landing awards, respect, and honor rolls left and right. However, she didn't develop lasting friendships at this time. Two was eventually called Holly by her parents as time went on. Her weekends were spent on experimentation, which she was familiar with. They tested her powers, intelligence, and physical aspects to see if she was healthy. No such time would be for her to spend moments of relaxation. To Holly, her life was spent being busy and working.
Her parents saw her as if she was a sort of shiny tool that could do things in a relatively short time. As she got older, she gained more awards and attention, most of which started to get into her head. Holly believed by being the best, she could win the favor of her own parents.
Come the last few years of high school, where Holly started to become infamous for her ego, but well-received for her academic works, and managed to become valedictorian at the end. From onlookers, it was evident that Holly showed amounts of unimaginable internal pain and mistrust. She was often seen by herself, constantly avoiding anyone. If she wasn't being anti-social, she was flaunting about how she was great and how she is more intellectually competent than her classmates. If anything, it was to hide the flaw that she's trying so hard to be someone she was not.
She attended university, but never had the chance to find an opportunity to move out until later in her fourth year. She was already referring to herself as Syoni Carav, wanting to push her origins away and try to forge an identity of her own. When she moved out, she refused to look back.
Holly Alcae is long gone.
And I killed her.
"Isn't there one thing you're missing?"
When Holly had started out college, she stumbled upon a woman who offered her a way to eventually find her way to salvation. The woman reminded of her, though she knew that this person looked like they have accomplished so much.
She took her hand, and took them to the moon. "Welcome to the Society of Creation," she said, and Holly became a member.
It took Holly so long for her to realize that this was Sharon, who now goes under the name Mary. It wasn't until Mary had fallen ill with an odd disease that causes flowers to grow around her body like a sort of parasite. In this condition, she was unable to be the Society's Director.
The then-naïve Holly cried out for Mary like a long-lost sister of sorts. She had only met her for months, yet it felt like they've known each other for their entire lives.
Holly wanted to promise Mary she'll help her out. Even if she initially had confusion over it all.
She wears two rings, one that was her Society ring, and Mary's Director ring. She took the responsibility of being the Director through illusions and holograms to give off the impression that she is Mary herself. Even then, it felt wrong to be someone she knew she wasn't.
"Don't you want to save her?"
This white stone...
This is the Space Creation, right?
"How insightful."
This won't be enough to fix my problems. You're well aware of that.
"What are you scheming right now, human girl?"
...
...
...
Houran.
Let me join you.
Take control of my person, and give me that power.
You have those answers, right?
"Don't you know you're dealing with the most severe of consequences?"
I mean,
I've got nothing else to lose.
Nothing but me.
Give me what I was missing...
Tell me...
Houran.
"Why are you giving up your feeble self for me?"
I am here, willing to risk everything. I want you to take me. Take me by the arm and push me off the edge I've been standing on for years.
Because as of today, all I can do now is fall.
Oh, everyone. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Chorale, Sariara, Holly...
Mary....
If you see me again, just know that,
this isn't the Syoni Carav you once knew anymore.
I've killed her, and myself. Over and over.
As of today, the rift of Space opens up to me. Those who try to fight me will be scattered and atomized throughout the world, unable to reform. This time, I will prove to everyone I'm worth something.
Goodbye.
Syoni's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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So What?!
25th day of Kronas, 834 NA
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The Thrall
17th day of Ignita, 835 NA
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Nihilism
17th day of Ignita, 835 NA
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Second Thoughts
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
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Remember - (1/?)
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
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Remember - (2/?)
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
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Remember - (3/?)
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
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Remember - (4/4)
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
25th day of Kronas, 834 NA
17th day of Ignita, 835 NA
17th day of Ignita, 835 NA
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
37th day of Aulen, 835 NA
The major events and journals in Syoni's history, from the beginning to today.
you can't deny the fact that everything i've done before this never mattered.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAit's not like whatever i take from this mini-museum will cause everyone to panic. the robot, and the cubes.[br] you'll be useful.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAim sorry, chorale
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAEmbraced Despair
If this is how I'll save myself from everyone else...
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAi know what i'm doing.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NARemember (4/4)
Let me tell you the story of someone who has long since been dead. There once was a young girl who went by the name Holly Rosea Alcae. However, her parents were quick to call her [i]Du[/i] or Two when she was successfully created. Two had the appearan...
08:00 am - 21.08.2019tell me. [i]houran.[/i]
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAive got nothing to lose anymore. nothing else but me. give me what i was missing.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAwhy don't i remember this
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAwhere did you go, hana
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAthe stone continues to glow.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NARemember - (3/?)
I've been observing Hana in this small room for what I thought felt like eternity. I don't think it's been eternity, though. They added in false memories to give off the impression that she grew up like a normal human being. It was evident that they rush...
10:30 am - 14.08.2019one.[br] the first flower.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NARemember - (2/?)
My mother and father were always busy with their lab work. If they weren't being too clingy and surveillance-y for my liking, they were busy working on scientific bullshit while I worry about being watched for every single day of my life. A lone yet la...
12:40 pm - 09.08.2019Experienced a Past
why does it all feel so familiar and unfamiliar at the same time?
37th day of Aulen, 835 NARemember - (1/?)
She was visibly overwhelmed with the same amount of stress that I had in high school. At first, I thought that was me for a moment, but closer inspection revealed that Mary just reminded me of... myself. I thought we were two different people, and that sh...
10:31 am - 09.08.2019i had no other place to go. i needed to find something.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NASecond Thoughts
I heard his voice, and I was convinced this was reality. Every bit inside me had the conviction that this wasn't a nightmare I was facing - it was reality. It was reality and it was the harsh truth As I leap out into the depths of space from the rift, ...
09:36 am - 08.08.2019it cant be true alomes couldnt have mary isnt she isnt
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAi hope she'll be able to help find my own answers as well
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAi feel like there is something missing with me.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAand why does every moment that i think about her, i feel the guilt that ive done something wrong
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAwhy does [i]this[/i] remind me of mary
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAhow long. how long were you here for. give me a good reason as to why i shouldn't shoot your brain out of your head. entertain me, i dare you.
37th day of Aulen, 835 NAi want mary to know i haven't given up yet. i want mary to know that i'm not going to falter and die. i want mary to know that i still care about her. i want mary to know that i can't see her suffer like this.
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAi don't care. i don't care. i don't care. i don't care. it doesn't matter to me anymore. i know that i'm never going to be great. i should just give up while i'm here. why try, knowing in the end it'll all be for naught
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAwill will i ever make any difference here will i ever change the world with what i have now is it going to matter am i going to die knowing i never made any difference to this world no matter how hard i tried
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAwhat should i do when a bunch of rocks:[br] dissolve into acid[br] blow up[br] catch on fire[br] temporarily blind me[br] and turn into fine powder afterwards?
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAdont people realize how unhealthy it is to act like theyre on some sort of power fantasy you are not above consequence, moral especially
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAlife may be like that sometimes but its up to us to change it
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAi wonder if [i]they[/i] realize how their "humanitarian efforts" are just cheap tricks for them to make money to the detriment of literally everyone else. then again, do they [i]even[/i] care about people in the first place, or do they just care about being even more wealthy than they already are? do they really care about our wellbeing?
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NA@e02aaaf5-31e8-4083-b6a9-f2c871b26e4f have you ever considered using your string psionics to fish
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAalomes stop running
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAim tempted to chase after alomes right now
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAtoday alomes has been acting edgy, the android's core disappeared, and ive been getting odd telepathic messages from someone i dont know
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAWHAT HE DISAPPEARED
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAhe just passed by wonder if i can
22nd day of Ignita, 835 NAcallout post to alomes carcen: he dresses more emo now that he came back and this is unlike him what
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAWAIT WHERE DID THE CORE GO
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAdid i just see alomes pass by???????? w h a t
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAwhat is this, goblin fighting for babies? oh. i forgot to change the difficulty setting whoops
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAhow the fuck did my parents even get a copy of my card to get into my home?????????????????
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAi wish i wasnt broke 26/5 because rent in epoka is getting more and more expensive
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAoh i guess going to hell is cancelled but i had to fight an android
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAi promise ill bring back a souvenir back
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAmight visit hell soon for an errand idk
21st day of Ignita, 835 NAliches get stiches
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAHOLY SHIT one of them actually went through w my offer i wish one of them didnt just stab the other
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAthat does it im stalking her
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAwhat if i cloned myself
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAshame i cant see this cool heist happening in person
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAfor once holly is actually helpful when i need her
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAquestions i know wont break for me.[br] answers i know will change everything.[br] for once, stop being stubborn and talk.
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAjust answer me, damn it.[br] there are questions i know you have the answers to.
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAthey canceled classes because of the empty souls
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAthe flowers she gave me.[br] i still have it.[br] its still alive.[br] because i still care.[br]
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAwho knew our first contact would be our last
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAanother two bite the dust, it seems
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAmy brothers literally telling me to make my sculpture be a dumb pun and reference to an anime and im like THATS NOT HOW YOU WIN THE TOURNAMENT THE JUDGES HAVE A VERY SPECIFIC AND [i]R E F I N E D[/i] TASTE
18th day of Ignita, 835 NAoh goddddd the psionic struts tournament is next month how the fuck am i gonna top the sculpture i did last year
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAthe most deadliest of gambles you could do are the deck of many things and lootboxes
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAif you think you have it bad, think about the many other people who have been subjected to constant pressure by their peers and family so they can conform to the standards or ideals that have been set upon them, only to fall down horribly as a result
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAactually its more like the crumbs of a corn chip
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAwhat kind of person uses a crystal the size of a corn chip to power up their shit
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAcompanies here trying to sell useless pieces of flashing lights for 5 star points and im like WHAT KIND OF IDIOT WOULD BUY SOMETHING THATLL BREAK IN 1 HOUR[br] like theres better phones for literally 2 star points i dont get it
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAGOD its been a while since ive last heard her voice. its like listening to your once favorite music after so many years
17th day of Ignita, 835 NACall me Holly Rosea Alcae again and I will call you six feet under.
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAblueprint to make this shitty eye a less shitty eye
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAis it bad that i relate to syoni too much
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAmore souls. great.
17th day of Ignita, 835 NASo what?!
Do you actually care about anything that I say, or do you just brush it off because it doesn't matter? How many times have you told me that you loved me, and how many times was it genuine? Are you aware of how apathetic you are to what I have to say, an...
02:38 pm - 04.06.2019callout post to alomes carcen i dont think hes bad but i just think hes too suspicious looking
17th day of Ignita, 835 NANihilism
They're empty, devoid of thought. They weren't like any of the normal spirits that roam around this plane. And they were obviously unwelcome. After the thrall came these fiends. Initially harmless swirls of wispy energy floating in the sky, they landed...
02:43 am - 03.06.2019yo WHAT ARE THESE GHOST HUMANOID THINGS and WHY ARE THEY TERRORIZING EPOKA??????
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAResisted the urge to follow a rock's orders!
my willpower is stronger than a magic pebble
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAout of all the things that try to control me its a rock
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAThe Thrall
The stone did it again. It's the same message over and over - unite myself with space and become powerful. It's actually getting too annoying than it is helpful. I've managed to resist that grasping urge this odd voice keeps on pulling me to, but what ...
10:51 am - 01.06.2019the rock's doing the thing again
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAinstead of continuing what i was supposed to do i decided to treat myself with a delicious meal from that new robot café that just opened up and its only 9:45 am
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAmaybe that guy who i send letters to doesnt even read them what a bastard
17th day of Ignita, 835 NAit moved a little bit before i could start dismantling it like gee i havent even taken the batteries off and youre already wanting to go home
02:43 pm - 31.05.2019lmao this eyeballs pretty crap but hey theres some good magical shit in here so it evens out
02:40 pm - 31.05.2019The list of amazing people following the adventures of Syoni.



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Birthplace
Epoka, Lilica
Contacts & Relations
Though her mother and father always pamper her with the new things, it's only just so she can be pushed to her limits and be above all. Syoni pretends to play along, but in the end she thinks of them as those who expect her to do everything. She has a younger brother who is ten years younger than her who is in a similar position as her. Out of all the members in her family, Syoni is closest to her brother.
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Wealth & Financial state
Syoni has the wealth to spend, though she never explains the reason as to how they get into her possession. All people know is that she has a high-paying job somewhere that gives her the extra spending money.
Religious Views
Has a skeptical view and wonders if the gods are playing with the mortals like puppets on strings, but does not confirm nor deny their existence. That being said, she's into studying ghosts and others under the undead umbrella.
Social Aptitude
Syoni is shown with this extremely huge ego, extroverted demeanor, loud voice and sarcastic personality. Obviously this is just some guise to try and hide from the fact that she has this self-deprecating attitude over the attempt to be someone she's obviously not.
Often times she'll treat someone with an amount of respect or sympathy, should she see that they've been in a similar situation as her.