Sebastian First Diving Journal

Sebastian writes his first diving as well as unusual feelings.

Full entry:   I feel all messed up. Diving was amazing but everything else about today felt so off balance. Alex just was swimming around while I got ready to dive. but before I got on the board he got out of the water and touched my shoulder. He told me to be careful and good luck. It felt weird and good. I can still feel where his hand was. I don't know what to do or what it means. It's like I'm becoming more broken. I can't even stop thinking about it. What is wrong with me? Would Alex be mad about me thinking about his hand on my shoulder? I just threw up. I'm so scared about all of this.