HRH Journal about Eton 2nd Half Start

HRH writes of start of term stress, his first upcoming diving fixture and his friendship with Alex Fielding.

January 30th Friday   This have is kicking my butt. I feel like I'm behind, but I'm not. I'm actually doing really well, but it feels like I'm really working hard at it. My first real diving competition is next Friday. I know Milton and Papa are coming. I hope Gan comes too. Our coach says if I do well I can start working on the ten meter. I tried doing the synchro last week. It didn't go well. I don't know if it was me or Ryan who messed it up. Maybe it was both of us. I really don't like relying on someone else to keep up with me for my score. I think I'll try it again at some point but I think maybe sychro isn't for me. Greatpapa wants me to see if I like Polo now that I like riding horses. Alex says he likes Polo so I might try it so we have a sport we can do together. The other day, Alex was in my room - I don't think he likes the other two boys he shares with - and for some reason he was in my closet and he saw the shirt Annie got me (Eton Drop Out t-shirt). He laughed so hard I thought someone might complain. He also said he thinks the signet from Gam is cute. Without even thinking I blurted out "yeah well you're cute." We both froze. After a few seconds, Alex asked if I was being serious. I told him he is cute for a boy. I was trying to pretend that whole thing didn't happen. Alex just said "oh." A few minutes later he said he had revisions to do and left in a hurry. Clearly I made him feel wierd. I hope I didn't just ruin my only friend at Eton over my dumb wierd feelings.