Entry 378
Cultural event
17/7
Imagine who crawled out of some secret place to call me today to see if the rumors are true. I loathe the idea that the man I'd once called my best friend is calling my love life a rumor.
He said that it had come up through "intel" channels, not the bloody Herald. If that's really the case, why did Milton wait until the newspapers had some commentary.
He then asked me why we never did anything other than watch each other. I didn't have an answer. He said he'd have done more in he'd known it was on the table. I felt like it was best if I made a joke so I just said "it's for the best. Two bottoms do not make a top." Milton didn't seem to think my joke was funny and instead took it as an invitation to ask about Rory's dick. I told him Rory is the best. Which isn't untrue, but part of that is the connection and how attentive he is.
Milton complained that we used to tell each other everything. He's right about that but it's hard to share with him when he tells me absolutely nothing about his life anymore. When I told him that, he sounded upset. He just said call it a casualty of the job.
The thing is, Milton was my best friend and I miss him terribly, but he's who created this distance.
After, I told Rory about all of it. The entire conversation. He told me that not everyone worries about everyone else first. I had to break it to Rory that I often don't think of others first.
We laughed and had supper - chinese take away, before Rory went home and I came up to write.
