Someday of Dark 212 EoL
Dear Diary,
I know, it has been a few days since I last wrote to you. I know, you used to be my trustworthy ally for as long as I can write. I know, I have been sharing all my feelings with you. And I am deeply sorry for neglecting you. It's just... there are no feelings to share.
So much has happened during those days, time has flown while we were on this island. We killed a bunch of bad guys, collected some shards, regrew some limbs, reneglected some deals sure we are making progress on our quest to save the world. There have also been setbacks, like losing Ken and losing trust and interest in some people. What can I say? I feel... mostly... indifferent.
Indifferent, because neither Trip nor Lucky really want to talk to me.
Indifferent, because even if we fullfill our quest, I'll have to live another 1000 years not knowing what to do with my life.
Indifferent, because I'm sure that Shirel's ex wants to be with him, and then Shirel is going to leave me as well. (Which is no reproach to him, he deserves to be happy, hence the indifference instead of anger or sadness.)
Indifferent, because this island is boring as can be, but at the same time it is the coolest mean of transport there is.
Indifferent, because fighting alongside my brother is just unnessessary. He can transform into anything he wants and win every fight on his own. Why do we even participate? Maybe because the alternative would be to be stuck longer on the dull island.
Indifferent, because we have all the money in the world, but money can't buy you happyness.
Indifferent, because I have all those great ideas for clothes, but no possibility to sell them to people to make them happy.
Indifferent, because I can't spread happyness and thus not be happy.
We have enough shards now (after killing Arshardon and Caius) to go to Sigil and unleach their power to close the wound. There are more shards out there, so we may be going to get those first. The Empress told us that the Worldtrees keep one each and the Chained One also spoke to us about the shards. Well on the other hand, we have a few personal matters to solve, like getting Ken back, who wished himself to Sedem Lux (or maybe killing him, who knows what will happen). We also still haven't contacted Shirel's ex and kid. All we ever do is talk about what to do. We talk and talk and talk and don't decide on anything. Or, if we decide something, then we renegociate it the next day and throw our plan overboard (or more fitting: overisland).
Honestly, I am not sure if I'll write again, if I still need you like I needed you. Maybe I just outgrew you. Maybe I'm an adult now. If so, then being an adult kind of sucks.
Goodby my dearest diary, please don't be too mad at me. I really am sorry and I will never forget you.
BB
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