Not sure what's going on

They all talk about the force, she could open up the stone door without touching it. There is no reasonable explaination to this. My life have been a life of thought and science. If I dived into the knowledge surronding an idea or a troublesome item, I've figured it out in the end. But she won't speak of it. I was so furious with her. It was not as if I demanded to know her personal life, I just wanted to know what we were walking into. They have called it a cultist temple, perhaps even an ancient city underneath the ground. Who knows what it hides. What potensial danger which lingers there. I know she knows something about it. That epiphani I could see in her eyes when I mentioned the Kyber crystals. It's a jedi-thing. She has ties, yet she seems sincere about not being a jedi, she's young and with the politics of today, she should be cautious. Oh, poor professor Rackson, I did it again, didn't I? Managed to put an innocent life at harm because of my hunger for knowledge, for my satisfaction of understanding. And what came out of it? A lots of unspecific notions. No facts, no clear answers. Just "singing crystals", some kind of sensor-proof corridors and vague religious bullshit. Or is it? Listen to me, I feel like I'm loosing my mind.
I need to stay sharp. At least I managed to keep my research out of the equation. It was a close call yesterday. I do not dare to think of the consequenses of them capturing me and getting the data. Now I do have a choice, they won't capture me alive, then they won't find my results. Which means a less chance for them to use my findings to put an end to any opponents. They are looking for something here. It must be something they want to use as a weapon. Or perhaps some sort of shielding?
The Stygiam crystals are unnerving. How can I analyze them without exact readings. They have to be the thing causing the disturbance in the corridors.
10-10-10 seems to be unaffected though, perhaps a droid, even if he's from dodgy environment, can be more useful in this that I first thought. Sure he can fly, and do maitenance, but he can also give presise measurements which we need in this weird ruin. I'm still not sure of what to think of Tolgaleinen, she knows more than she let's out. She has an obsession to something, it's like she's not got the same goals as us. Or perhaps it's just my goal. My own obsession of getting back to my dear child, my husband. I need him now, more than ever. I've never been this lost in my entire life. Perhaps Tolga and I are more alike than I wanted to admit.