Apathy

Hey there Kass.
 
This Night was a weird one.
First of: How rude of you to lock up that lovely songstress in the cell next to our bird. I allowed her to be stationed close to the guard post so that she may sing her wonderful song to the watchmen nearby. Please be respectful to her as she’s likely as old as Megan!
 
Just as I was done showing her her, place though, there was another attack from you know who. I’m just so SICK AND TIRED of them barging close to our garden and fortress and causing all sorts of ruckus, again and AGAIN.They blew up someone’s car nearby and killed a few of our guardsmen – again. .-.
We disposed of them eventually though, but one of them managed to hit me. Now is where it becomes interesting though. Do you know what they used? Bow and arrow! I’m not sure if I should respect them for using some more noble weapons again or if I should call them utterly stupid for it. I know that we love fighting with our crossbow and rapier ourselves, which may not be the optimal in modern times. Inflicting pain with a stuck crossbow bolt or a festering wound by our blade is just something I simply cannot live without nowadays.
But they? There is no reason why they would suddenly give some untrained schmucks bow and arrow over a gun. Pulling a trigger is just easier for your everyday wannabe hunter. I guess they got lucky that one of them knew how to hold one and actually managed to make his arrow strike its target: ME!
Well that normally wouldn’t be a problem of course. The pain was even deliciously sweet while it lasted, but the thing I didn’t expect was that those clever bastards coated the tip of the arrow with a poison.
 
“So what?” You may think. KASS, THE POISON HURT! I … don’t quite know how they did it but they cooked together a poison cocktail with elements of wolfsbane and TREMERE BLOOD that affects even us vampires. By Lilith Kass, they somehow got hold of someone using Blood Sorcery or something like that for it. I don’t know how much of the stuff they got on supply and how easy it is for them to get more, but this is very VERY dangerous. What if they somehow secretly spike blood with it? While it was easy enough to get it out of my system when there was just a small enough dose, mortal things didn’t quite fare as well. I tested it on some rats, dogs and humans. As I should have suspected they all died shortly after injecting a tiny doze into them. The larger they were, the longer they lasted though. Not long mind you, but the humans didn’t just flatline as quickly as the rats. I tried some antidote on it and, as expected, it didn’t help in any way either. I … highly doubt normal medicine will work for this, Kass. So if one of our flock gets poisoned by that we either – somehow – immediately replace their entire blood supply, if that even works, or just offer them the closest comfort we can before Lilith accepts them into her final embrace. What if Victoria or Heather get hit by that? By Lilith I don’t even want to imagine that! I know you love Vic, but if it came to losing her forever or saving her, could you do it? Could I do it? I’m not sure I could do it for Leonora or Amely, if one of them got struck by it while I was nearby. So please let me know what I should do if it comes to that, WHEN I’m about! I promise you something though, Kass. If something happens to either of them, the gloves come off.
 
If the recent “experiments” showed me something it’s that my empathy is slowly turning to apathy. I actually quite enjoyed seeing those humans slowly die to the poison their “saviors” developed against us. Deliciously ironic, even if it was me who injected the vile concoction into them. If this goes on Kass, I don’t know how much I’ll care about the humans that are not Bahari or our close ones. When I look into some strangers' eyes on the street it’s hard to see more than cattle, honestly. If they’re unfit or unwilling to follow the Lilin path, then what are they good for? Nourishment, pleasure and experimentation? It may be that, slowly, our beast inside us is crawling her way out, but maybe – just maybe – she is also starting to make sense to me in some respects. But no matter how many of those unbelievers may suffer, I will continue to use them in order to keep the Bahari safe. No matter how “black” my heart turns. They should be happy that their silly lifes can be of value to the Dark Mother. A sacrifice I am more than willing to bring to her.
Anyways you’ll see soon for yourself what we’re dealing with, and I’m sure you’ll handle yourself out there. Time for me to head to bed though, it’s actually getting somewhat early. Good hunting out there Kass and may the Dark Mother watch over you!
 
P.S. Oh I fixed the computer up as well, so get some of our tech people together and see if you can find anything of value in regards to our bird's son!
P.P.S. !ASK ARLO AGAIN HOW LONG UNTIL THE LAMIAN COMES!
 
 
S/NM
 
 
Ali hay Lilitu
 
 
NACHTMAHR OUT