Hubris is the Downfall of Man

We almost made real progress and as much as I want to blame Genji. I need to apologize to him first and foremost, I really laid into him when I came out of my "rest". It really was my fault. I was the one who rushed in. I was the one that let my emotion and hubris take over. I am the reason Bito needs repair. I am the reason I fell in battle. Most importantly I am the reason Vazrimoth still lives on. The only brightside is that it was my own actions that got myself killed rather than my foolishness killing Benkei or Genji.
 
I really do not know what to do for the first time in a long time. Do we attempt to use the coin? Do we head to Feng-Nao? Do we wait in the chasm for Vazrimoth to return? Maybe Laxius has some insight. I just do not know. I do not want to make the wrong decision but indecision could lead to a much worse situation. Maybe Benkei and Genji have some ideas.
 
I think in all reality I am afraid. We do not know anyone's true endgame, Laxius' or Nultial's. We just know Laxius wants the Apostles dead, and with Nultial, we have really no idea what he wants I have just been making guesses.
 
I pray to Tyr we start to finally put some pieces together but with our recent track record I am not hopeful.