I Killed a Turtle
I'm scared. I don't know what I'm becoming. We found the chalice in the nearby caves and all I can focus on is that mission even now while I search for a sense of empathy for what I did.
We reached the lakebed and searched for a while before tracking the chalice to a cave, while exploring the cave I spotted a small cavern with a large rock and a chest in it. I activated my aura and... well... it gave me confidence to move, maybe arrogance in hindsight, not the usual angry, cold point of vengeance I feel.
The rock was breathing but I felt deaf to the risk of it, the moment I entered a creature emerged from the rock to attack and I fought back, I endangered Kit and Talon as they entered the fray to help me while Jaquee and Ashe left us to do their mission... Kit still can't bring himself to forgive Jaquee for the way she just left.
...It was a baby, a dragon turtle sure, but still a baby and I killed it... not just that, I made my friends kill it with me.
The chest was worth it though and so was the scavenged parts of the creature and I know that deep down, I also know that I should feel far worse for what happened but truthfully I know I only felt regret for endangering Kit and Talon.
That's what scares me, I have never been a lover of animals and I've always done what I've had to do but I can't help but feel the whispers, the vengeance and my own blood is driving me towards dark pragmatism. All I want is the utter destruction of the Dread King, even if it leads me to become a bigger monster than he ever was. I'm just scared of how far I know I'm willing to go.
I feel like I've managed to calm Jaquee and Kit just a little. They're both right and they're both wrong and I can't help but feel that's my fault... Just as I feel everyone is calming Ashe is starting to get tetchy and look around the group. I feel like she wants to say something, she doesn't often get this kind of look in her eyes.
Rowen's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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Mount Rillow and The Golden Hand
29 Mar 2020 12:06:47
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Fletch visited
20 Apr 2020 10:22:55
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I Killed a Turtle
20 Apr 2020 10:48:14
29 Mar 2020 12:06:47
20 Apr 2020 10:22:55
20 Apr 2020 10:48:14
The major events and journals in Rowen's history, from the beginning to today.
Session 7: Thirst for Knowledge
12:47 pm - 13.11.2020Session 7: Thirst for Knowledge
12:47 pm - 13.11.2020Session 6: A Step Forwards
12:45 pm - 13.11.2020Session 6: A Step Forwards
03:44 pm - 24.07.2020Session 5: A Family Divided
10:20 pm - 21.07.2020Session 5: A Family Divided
06:59 pm - 15.05.2020Session 4: Assault on Tenby
10:09 pm - 02.05.2020Session 4: Assault on Tenby
08:39 pm - 01.05.2020Session 3: Mixwhels Revenge
10:35 pm - 24.04.2020Session 3: Mixwhels Revenge
07:06 pm - 24.04.2020I Killed a Turtle
I'm scared. I don't know what I'm becoming. We found the chalice in the nearby caves and all I can focus on is that mission even now while I search for a sense of empathy for what I did. We reached the lakebed and searched for a while before tracking...
10:48 am - 20.04.2020Fletch visited
Fletch finally found the tomb and we were there waiting for him. Its been a year, we've travelled and started to finally build a worthwhile settlement here in Yabott with other people and friends here with us. We have Blacksmifhs the green ravens and o...
10:22 am - 20.04.2020Session 2: Finding the Chalice
10:05 pm - 18.04.2020Session 2: Finding the Chalice
06:53 pm - 17.04.2020Session 1: Tomb of the Dread King
11:56 pm - 10.04.2020Session 1: Tomb of the Dread King
07:00 pm - 10.04.2020Session 0: The Dread Kings Arrival
11:21 pm - 03.04.2020Session 0: The Dread Kings Arrival
06:41 pm - 03.04.2020Mount Rillow and The Golden Hand
Perhaps I shouldn't give these entries such exotic and, well, dramatic names... Gwynithar says it makes me sound like I'm a practising Bard rather than a practising attendant and assistant. Well, irregardless, it seems to amuse him at the very least fo...
12:06 pm - 29.03.2020The list of amazing people following the adventures of Rowen.
Social
Birthplace
Legalia
Current Residence
Mount Rillow
Contacts & Relations
None to speak of.
Honorary & Occupational Titles
Apprentice
Alchemist
Wealth & Financial state
None. He was not a paid servant and apprentice. Only wealth is in his possessions.
Family Ties
Gwynithar was his stand in father.
Religious Views
Non religious... Accepts they are there but don't believe the gods came into existence to help him.
Social Aptitude
Skilled in social interactions and a good diplomat though struggles to be flexible.
Mannerisms
Rather well spoken but breaks back into a more working class common if under duress.
Spent so long as an attendant and apprentice he forgets he no longer is.
Hobbies & Pets
Enjoys basic card games and betting games like poker and rummy.
Wishes he could have a pet pseudo dragon like Gwynithars
Speech
Eloquent with a slightly tinged mount Rillow accent.