An October Hike #31: A Landmark For Life
Leave it to Zeldine to sniff out everything I do. Or just assume we're all as sex-crazed as her. I step into the shower and let the warm water wash over my cluttered thoughts. Find the calm spot inside me, expand it, relax.
Maybe I am just an animal driven by my needs, like her. Maybe I wasn't thinking clearly. But even so, I feel little regret about it. I have been afraid of humans for so long, I don't know how to be around them, but I made it for one day. And with Leo there will be more days to come, but with him beside me, I am willing to try. To see the world I once had. That I want to have.
Maybe I am just an animal driven by my needs, like her. Maybe I wasn't thinking clearly. But even so, I feel little regret about it. I have been afraid of humans for so long, I don't know how to be around them, but I made it for one day. And with Leo there will be more days to come, but with him beside me, I am willing to try. To see the world I once had. That I want to have.
It's hard to grasp that it has only been a day. I feel like I've just passed a huge landmark. That I am not who I was yesterday anymore. That I am embracing life! Or maybe this is just what sex does after a dry spell. In any case, it's an intoxicating feeling. And I want more!
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