Entry 65

I talked to Alexander last night about NDAs. He told me that when we became close friends, someone from the Palace visited his mum and they both had to agree to Non-Disclosure. So I guess that handles that. But even knowing that, I couldn't teel him. I'm probably nervous about what he'll think. Maybe he will think Milton and I are perverts. Maybe he won't. Maybe he will want to do the same thing. I want to but I'm really scared to talk about it with Alexander. And is it a good idea to have that whatever it is whith Alex when I already have a crush on him? Do I tell him about my crush? Do other boys worry about this stuff this much?