22n'd Birthday Entry 188
Gathering / Conference
22/4
Greatpapa's funeral this past Monday continues to make waves in our family. Gran demanded that the mourning period end before my birthday. Somehow it didn't seem right that we should all have to put away our grief to celebrate me, but I'm grateful for Gran's compassion either way.
A photo has gone viral from the funeral of me comforting Gran. We both have tears in our eyes but she was clearly leaning much of her weight on me. It's been accompanied with captions and headlines that make me rather uncomfortable. "England's Heart Consoles Mourning Queen", "Queen Vicky Crushed, Prince Sebastian Her Rock", "Prince Sebastian, Soul of the Royal Family?" and one I hate most of all. "Human After All."
It's admittedly a very strange, and uncomfortable place, being in the back place of mourning while celebrating my birthday and moving into St James's Palace. THis strange place of being so -- lost -- without this guiding post we've always had and feeling like I'm striking out on my own.
What I wouldn't give for some of Greatpapa's advice right now. I miss him so badly.
