15th Birthday Entry 55
Cultural event
21/4
It's nearly impossible for me to believe that I've been keeping a diary for two years. It's hard somoetimes to remember that some of the lads in my year are actually the same age as I am. So many of them seem so immature. Yet in several cases they are even older than my 15 years. But then Alexander is my age and is about the same age as me, emotionally. I would have wondered if perhaps the maturity that I have seemingly acquired may have been inherited, but then both me and Alexander and even Milton--we're all about the same.
I wonder if it's because we're all gay.
Gan had a large supper at Windsor. It was a very good meal but a little awkward.
After supper, I came back to Eton alone. I don't know why I'm feeling so stalked. Winston Churchill said he was plagued by what he called the "black dog." I think I understand what he meant.
