Entry 176

Cultural event

I laid in my bed for a bit before I decided I needed to go through my dresser drawers. After I counted out my pants, I decided to try on my favorite jockstrap. I modeled them for myself, deciding that I preferred a pair I'd ordered recently from a gay pride collection. When I'd ordered them, I felt a small thrill at the idea of wearing them about as bit of secret, public pride.

The waist band is a rainbow band with the word PRIDE in block letters, the bands going from the pouch under my cheeks to the back are pure red.

I immediately needed someone else to see me in them.

I'm still not sure what got into my gin soaked mind but I do not regret it. I sent a message to Rene. I invited him to my hotel for a drink and a second later I sent a photo of my arse in the jockstrap, to make sure Rene had no question of what I was inviting him for.

While I waited for Rene to get there - or here, rather - I had another drink. And allowed my hand and fingers to tug and rub at myself, readying myself for Rene.

When he got her and knocked at the door, I was only in that jockstrap.

Rene pushed me against the wall and claimed my lips with his own. His fingers dug into the pouch of the jockstrap and his long fingers wrapped around me.

From where he was pressed against me, I could feel his own raging erection. I told Rene I needed him and dropped to my knees and worked his jeans and pulled his dick free and wrapped my lips around his cock. It felt amazing to feel the weight of Rene's dick on my tongue..

After a few moments , he told me that he wanted a few rounds. I nodded and hummed without taking him out of my mouth. I wrapped my hand around his scrotum and thrilled at the sound of his moan. A few moments later, his balls drew up tight and his dick seemed to grow even bigger in my mouth.

I knew Rene was getting close to orgasm. Even with Alexander, I never took his releas in my mouth. I could not wait for him to come to completion, but just as I expected him to release, Rene pulled himself out of my mouth and finished across my face.

I didn't expect to be even more aroused by feeling him finish on me.

We waited a few minutes and Rene said "And now 'Bastian I am going to fuck you senseless."

I said something like "Yes, please do."

Feeling Rene press into me was painful at first, he's much bigger than anyone else who has been inside of me. It didn't take long for the pain to give to wild, animalistic pleasure.

I had Rene drive into me many times that night. I also had Rene do another thing I've never done before. I had him fuck me withoug a barrier, and everytime I practically begged him to empty himself into me. I've never imagined how amazing it would feel to have it inside me.

Sadly, I cannot indulge myself in this fashion again. Not even with Rene. Never again with Rene. I've lost too many friends as it is.