Entry 367
Cultural event
99
10/6
10/6
10th June, Y99
Whocares
I want to die. It's over. I want everything to be over. The thing is I have more than enough medication to do it, but I'm a coward.
Today was the Anglesey Derby. Rory Uther took second. I went to congratulate Rory and we took a walk. And he ruined it all. He told me he's in love with me.
It was everything I wanted, to be loved by a man I loved so much. My life lit up. My mind showed me every fantasy version of my life I've had since I met Rory. Everything was there. RIGHT THERE. I could have confessed and had it all. But I'm the heir to the Throne of the United Kingdom. I can't have it. I'm born for the purpose of sacrifice and service.
I want to die.
