Unbalance

Since my release from the control of the darkness, I have been readjusting to the changes that have been done to me.
 
The physical changes have been the easiest to accept. My eyesight is sharper. My sense of smell is stronger. My skin feels more resistant. I can feel fangs in my mouth. I can feel the sharpness of my nails, might be better to call them claws ...
 
Behind my eyes I can feel a dark beast lurking. It's quiet most of the time but when I get into close combat, when can feel my enemy in my claws, smell their flowing blood, that is when it jumps up and takes control. When it takes control, it doesn't stop until it has destroyed every living creature around it. I have been lucky so far. In all combat so far I have been able to keep my distance and use my magic. I have more control this way. What will happen once they see the monster I have lurking in my head? I believe Dredd will still accept me but what of the others?
 
The magical changes have been the most difficult to accept. It feels alien. I used to be able to use my magic to reach out and feel the magic of the world. Magic could flow freely between the world and myself. Now I am cutoff from the magic of the world. I can only take magic. I feel like a parasite. It is not natural. When I try to clear my mind and reach out with my magic, I can't hold my focus. Dark thoughts from the beast will intrude and break my concentration.
 
I need to get control. Dredd offered to help me. It might be time to take him up on his offer ...