Unbalance
Since my release from the control of the darkness, I have been readjusting to the changes that have been done to me.
The physical changes have been the easiest to accept. My eyesight is sharper. My sense of smell is stronger. My skin feels more resistant. I can feel fangs in my mouth. I can feel the sharpness of my nails, might be better to call them claws ...
Behind my eyes I can feel a dark beast lurking. It's quiet most of the time but when I get into close combat, when can feel my enemy in my claws, smell their flowing blood, that is when it jumps up and takes control. When it takes control, it doesn't stop until it has destroyed every living creature around it. I have been lucky so far. In all combat so far I have been able to keep my distance and use my magic. I have more control this way. What will happen once they see the monster I have lurking in my head? I believe Dredd will still accept me but what of the others?
The magical changes have been the most difficult to accept. It feels alien. I used to be able to use my magic to reach out and feel the magic of the world. Magic could flow freely between the world and myself. Now I am cutoff from the magic of the world. I can only take magic. I feel like a parasite. It is not natural. When I try to clear my mind and reach out with my magic, I can't hold my focus. Dark thoughts from the beast will intrude and break my concentration.
I need to get control. Dredd offered to help me. It might be time to take him up on his offer ...
Harumi's Journal Ordered oldest to newest
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3 Years?!
21 Feb 2020 04:24:14
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New Start?
22 Feb 2020 09:18:19
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Something Familiar
23 Feb 2020 03:41:31
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Nightmares
23 Feb 2020 09:01:18
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Unbalance
06 Mar 2020 01:35:55
21 Feb 2020 04:24:14
22 Feb 2020 09:18:19
23 Feb 2020 03:41:31
23 Feb 2020 09:01:18
06 Mar 2020 01:35:55
The major events and journals in Harumi's history, from the beginning to today.
3 Years?!
"I haven't seen you since 3 years and 4 months." Dredd said it with such certainty that I did not doubt him. Why can't I remember? I remember the day he left. It hurt to see him go and it hurt more to know it was my fault he had to go. With Bahamut gon...
04:24 am - 21.02.2020New Start?
I remember seeing Dredd coming down the stairs. It felt like a dream. Then came the rush of emotions. The anger, the sadness, and most of all the guilt. I lost control and lashed out at all of them. While I was trying to kill all of them, they saw Dredd's...
08:34 pm - 22.02.2020Something Familiar
The day started and I was informed by the group that they were heading to some ancient ruins to clear out some undead. This seemed nice, familiar and most of all straight forward. A simple quest to get rid of some monsters, like before this crystal busine...
03:41 am - 23.02.2020Nightmares
Every night I go to sleep I dread it. There is no peace in sleep for me. On good nights I am buried in memories of what has past: the night my tribe was taken, the many battles at the Horn, the night Bahamut was taken, the day Drachen left and those 3 ...
09:01 pm - 23.02.2020Unbalance
Since my release from the control of the darkness, I have been readjusting to the changes that have been done to me. The physical changes have been the easiest to accept. My eyesight is sharper. My sense of smell is stronger. My skin feels more resista...
01:35 am - 06.03.2020The list of amazing people following the adventures of Harumi.
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