Severus Inspects a Spool of Thread

When I was at The Weaver's Temple, one of the clerics gave me this spool of thread after one of the rites I performed. They taught me how to weave threads into tapestries for worship, but this thread feels different. Why did he give me this? What was that vision I received before I was abducted? What am I supposed to do with this thread? I have more questions than answers and it is so frustrating for me I can't stand it!
 
I know that this thread is important, I can feel it. I just wish the guy told me how I was to use it before I was abducted! Do I go back to the temple and bluntly ask him? One week was not enough. I don't know anything that I need to know! How do I use this stupid, bloody thread!
 
I want to ask Fip or Erik about this, as they know more about magical items than myself, but Fip is reading and Erik... well, we are all worried about Erik. He harmed the entire party during our last adventure. That book of his is doing him no favors. I'm debating if I should decurse him when he sleeps and physically remove it from him. The only issue with that is Erik is walking a dark path and that may send him over the edge. Oh, did I mention that Scree has a mimic on her face? I am worried for my friends, and I am worried for myself. That voice asked me if I could bear the weight of the truth. To be perfectly honest? I don't know.
 
What I do know is that I have to be better than the memories in my head. The snake that my memories show me to be are too awful for anyone to bear. It's why I took the last name of Snake. It was the first face I saw in the mirror that resembled the monster of my memories. I may carry the face but there are two people battling inside of me. I see it in my eyes every time I see my reflection. The evil monster my memories have shown me to be; and the bardic, loving person that I want to be. Of the two, I choose the latter. However, if it turns out that the memories I have are true, and I truly was that monster? I have shown that is not who I am anymore. I am a creature of merriment, not the nightmares of my past.
 
I'm going back to the temple. If they refuse me, that's fine, but I don't know how to move forward right now. I'm sorry my thoughts were all over the place in this journal, but one day I will see how all of the pieces fit.