Priesthood

There I found myself, knocking on towering, gem-encrusted obsidian doors of the Lothite Cathedral of Perhonas. Matriach Perhonen had given me a letter or recommendation, so I was accepted, but anyone who doesn't feel anxious in the presence of Lothites is a fool.
 
Life as a neophyte could not have been more different than life at home. I was a slave to the full priests, but so were all the other girls and one boy. We served the full priests in every way imaginable and plenty we could never have imagined. There was something akin to camaraderie. We were now property of Lolth and only she was allowed to kill us, via her priests of course. It wasn't that we neophytes trusted each other, rather that we knew the threat wasn't from each other. I had it easier than most of them. I had no ambition. Satisfactory performance was all I aspired to. Some imaginative neophytes saw my "apparent" lack of ambition as a brilliant maneuver to evade unwanted attention.
 
Despite my lack of effort, I drew attention. The deviant and the demonic are embraced in the church. The forms of some demons match my own, both male and female. My hybrid form delighted the priests and they saw it a a gift from Lolth, that rather than being a mutant borne of excessive mutagen use, that I had been blessed with demonic blood. Ritual orgies were my first experience with uncomplicated joy. You can forget yourself amidst the surging bodies and flowing blood. Though at least some presence of mind must be maintained as the participants have a penchant for demonic transformation the powerful magics involved aren't precisely controlled.
 
I was a fool, and it was nearly too late when I realized what the priests had planned for me. High Priestess Thayil made me a full priest far sooner than I had anticipated, but not because I had earned it, but because she saw me as nothing but a vessel for her pet project. She expected me to excited and honored when she told me that I was to be mother to a Draegloth. I barely managed to keep my cool as she excitedly explained that my "blessed" form might permit me to give birth to a unique Draegloth with the grace and intelligence of a female and the strength of a male. She had no idea if it would work, but her curiosity was completely unrestrained by the risk to my life.
 
I thanked High Priestess Thayil, and walked right out of the Cathedral and into the Underdark.