To Marushka:

I’m sorry. Let me say that first.
 
I love you. I know you’ve been upset with me since I took the Stoyanavich curse upon myself, and I never really gave you an explanation. Allow me to do so now.
 
I have not been very outspoken about my family back in Faerun, and the reason for that is simple: I no longer have any. I have not told you about your new in-laws, because they have already been put to rest. I have no further family to introduce you to in the event we make it out of Barovia alive. To be frank, I took the job to escort Elaine and Bryndon because I had nothing left. I had not even the desire to make the best with the rest of my life. I was a pain in the ass, and a drunkard. It was the lure of the Borgermeister’s money that made me come here. To that end, I give thanks to the fates for having baited me so. For if not, I would not have met you.
 
I know I gave you a lot of shit when we first met. How you rebuked my own achievements, and thought me a liar when I told you we arrived by boat. I was by your side, leading you safely through this hell, and yet still you seemed to pine for other, "better", hunters. I was jealous, of course. A beautiful woman as a traveling companion and she seemed to fawn over those she would deem your “betters”. You made me want to be better. You made me realize that the name of Belmont was not dead. You made me want to be a man worthy of you.
 
Because of that, of the future I dream of with you, and the desire to see you escape this nightmare that has become your life, I felt fear for the first time since I was a child. I once again felt like I had something to lose. And for everything that I am, I fear that I am not enough. I am a hunter of beasts and werewolves, this you know. Knowing the creatures as I do, I know also the power they posses. The power they can grant. It it why so many lesser men succumb lycanthropy. But I chose it willingly in this way, because I wanted the power to protect you. To walk with you into a new world and make new stories with you, and experience adventures the likes you’ve only ever read in a book, or perhaps been told by another around a fire.
 
I need to know I can control this curse, and make it mine. So that I might wield it as a weapon against our enemies. To this end, I have decided not to wait until the last minute to find out how the change will affect me. I leave behind my affects, all of them, to you. I hope to return and reclaim them so I might aid you all in the fight against Strahd, but should the probable happen and I lose myself to the beast I’ve become.. Pray, take up my arms and let them serve you well. I have shown you how to use them. Take also on your person the fragment of staff we recovered. It still has a small amount of magic within, and will allow you a cast of Wall of Force daily.
 
I am confident in myself, for once, thanks to you. I will not say goodbye here, because I do not believe this the end. No, I say ‘See you later.’ I believe I will return, and we will see this all through to the end together. I look forward to rebuilding the Belmont family with you.
 
Yours,
Trevor, of House Belmont