Alexandrie Donadieu
Sanjuio Alexandrie Donadieu (a.k.a. Alexa)
Alexandrie grew up la seule petite fille (the only granddaughter) de Alaina Donadieu, a woman who wandered off into the world 50 odd years ago and came back with riches and a strange (sentient?) golem, Vee.
The youngest member of the party, Alexandrie also knows the most out of all of them. At the very least, she has yet to be truly proven wrong in verbal combat with any of them, so she's going to assume that's the case. (Not Vee of course - Vee is the one she goes to for understanding when the others are making things up.)
She loves chocolate, et elle adore danser. It is difficult to stand still sometimes, parce que La Chanson est insistente.
People often do what she wants them to do (finalement), and they are often happy to help her when she needs help. But mostly she depends on Vee for help if she needs it. Il est très fort.
Physical Description
Physical quirks
If left alone for too long she starts to hum and fidget, as though she's hearing a good song that's stuck in her head.
Apparel & Accessories
If she could be wearing a sweater and jeans, she would be. But they'd be Levis, a Miu Miu sweater and probably some converse...The basics, but expensive basics. She's used to comfort and soft fabrics.
Flirty noble teenager who is far too complex for her own good.
Character Location
Current Location
The Progress Confederacy
Alignment
Neutral Good
Current Location
Birthplace
The Progress Confederacy
Children
Current Residence
Donadieu Manor
Gender
Female
Eyes
Light Brown
Hair
Curly dark brown/black
Skin Tone/Pigmentation
Brown
Height
5'0
Weight
100lbs/45kg
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Plus de morts
Alexa
Tomorrow we fight. Merde.
We're going to fight Tallman and his people and I don't want to kill any of them. Especially not the elven woman.
Pas la femme elfe.
Why is she working for him?
She didn't kill me before - why? Her job was to kill me.
Will she kill me now? Is that what this is now?
Faut-il la tuer?
Vee and Lucas will kill whoever they must.
Spider will kill if he must.
Moi?
I do not want Vee to be unhappy with me, but I do not want to kill. La Chanson, je pense...
I think La Chanson is giving me a choice. How to use the abilities I have been given.
Je veux aider. I want to heal. I do not want to kill.
But I do not want Chevalier
Lucas
Spider
Dead
Because I refused to do anything to protect them or protect myself.
Je ne suis plus un enfant.
I cannot let them down.
I will not let them down.
Grandmère...
How many did you lose trying to avoid killing?
How do I avoid killing but protect the others?
A plan
Alexa
We have walked into a lizard's den and I am expected to save everyone. Not just the people who are here now, not just the people of this town, but the people of the entire area.
Vee says not to think about keeping a promise to someone who has extracted it from me. It is not a promise worth keeping.
And what is the worth of a promise?
Va-t-il garder les gens en vie ou les tuer?
Am I sentencing people to death by keeping that promise?
We sit here in front of their leader. She is intelligent, and she was bored when we walked in.
Now we are being fed.
Ça a un goût de merde.
In this, at least, I can make Maman proud.
I ate it. And did not throw it up.
Lucas loves it all. He is strange, though. Un soldat.
Maybe soldiers eat crap like this.
Of course he can have a good time. He doesn't have to think about saving people.
Grandmère, I wish I were as good at talking to important people as you.
Do you get scared by it?
Do you know the elf who taught her to speak common? Am I being rude by not speaking to her in her language? It would be more dangerous, I think, to cast a spell to speak in their tongue. They do not know, right now, that I am anything more than a girl.
Perhaps in future it is best if I keep it that way.
I do not know who is after us, but it is enough that I am a Donadieu without becoming a threat.
Je suis si fatigué.
At What Cost?
Alexa
Maman,
Will there ever be a time when I have apologised enough? Not only have I left my home, I have left my house, an engagement, ma famille et vous. Now I have to commit to doing something I know is wrong, or doing something that society - that you - think is wrong.
When I swore I wouldn't say anything about the forge, I meant it. I mean it. I won't say anything. I don't want to disappoint Vee, or grandmère, but the things she fought for are the things I have now. Without her, I wouldn't have a house, I wouldn't have a home to think of, I wouldn't get to be homesick. J'adore grandmère, et j'adore Vee, mais...
I don't think they realise that I love my home. I love Shining Capital. I love the people there. If Tallman wins...
Merde.
If Tallman wins, I want to be able to be proud of my house.
Can I be proud if I keep this promise?
No. Maybe I could feel proud that I kept un promis, mais I could not be proud of the promise.
This is not like home. People could die if I make the wrong choice.
I made the promise to save the others, but...
What is my word worth if I give it up so easily?
The others want to just ignore it, but they are under my word too. Aren't they?
Merde, j'ai mal a la tête.
I don't want Tallman to win. That much is clear. I don't think he should. I think he is a liar, I think il est dangereux - not because of him. I have no doubt that if Spider had enough time to hunt him, he would be dead. Il est dangereux parce qu'il a commencé une chaîne d'événements. We need to be careful how we handle him.
There is something we are not seeing and if I didn't have such a headache I might be able to see it.
We need Tallman on our side. I think. I fear this may be bigger than some lizardfolk in a bog. I fear this information needs to get to the Capital. I can't give it. I cannot go there and break my word - there are other things I need to do. We are only two weeks from home and so much further to go yet. I can't turn around now.
La Chanson a une tâche pour moi. Maybe that will solve this. I have a feeling...
Merde, I want to lie down.
Mensonges: What is a Lie Worth?
Alexa
I do not know what to do. Monsieur Tallman wants for me to swear au nom de ma famille...
He wants me to swear on my house that we will leave and that we will tell no one what we have seen. I cannot control this. I am 18 years old. Who thought it was a good idea to put me in charge of this?
What would grandmère do? Maman would not want me to bring shame to la famille. She has done so much to legitimise the house. Or at least, that's what she says. And she would care about the lives of the foresters, but...but we sent word anyway to the Bagir'...maybe someone else could deal with this. Maybe there is a way that does not break a vow.
Mais grandmère, que ferait-elle?
If this is what Monsieur Tallman is doing here, why would he hesitate to do it elsewhere? What is the oath worth if he is forcing it? If this is how he treats us, what would he do to the foresters? What will he do to the lizardfolk?
Merde, my head still hurts. I'm never drinking again.
Who is he working for?
Why is he building a...forge so far from his home? Where is the rest of his family? Do they know?
Maman, I wish I could ask you, but you are not here. What use is having a house, what use is nobility if you can't use it to help people? I do not want to see anymore death.
It's not just the foresters, or the lizardfolk - what about those who work for him? They will have to fight the lizardfolk. The lizardfolk are huge, but Lucas says a lot of people could sleep in that room. They would be overwhelmed, and there would be a lot of bloodshed on both sides.
Maman does not like lying, mais grandmère...if the lie could save lives...why would the house be of importance?
I really hope I'm making the correct decision.
What now?
Alexa
They know about La Chanson now. Vee says he has heard it before, but the other two...pourquoi...why did you reveal yourself to them?
Is it because I am too weak to do what you need me to do alone? Is it because I got drunk and you can't trust me? I am trustworthy, je vous promets... I will do what you want and what you need.
Mais...you showed yourself to them and to me. I asked for help and you came and you helped all of us. Not just me. Tout le groupe. Vee says that never happened to grand-mère. Je ne vous comprends pas tout à fait.
Maman...would she still think what is happening is crazy? I didn't talk to her after the first time I tried. I didn't try to explain. I wish I had now.
Vraiment...
Because if this nobleman finds out who we are and we get sent home I'm going to wish I had been killed. Merde. She would be so angry after she got over being glad I was home.
I don't like the cold, and the wet, and the uncomfortable beds, but I think I would enjoy shackles less.
I think I would enjoy being married less.
We have these jobs to do. We need money to get to where you're sending me so we need this money.
We cannot let the lizardfolk hurt anyone else. We cannot let the lizardfolk get hurt anymore.
I do not want to go back.
It is one thing to stumble across a plot and get caught by a nobleman. It is another to stumble across a plot and get caught by a nobleman - knowing that someone is searching for me.
I do not want to be found.
But if the only way to keep everyone safe is to reveal myself, then that is what I will do.
I want to do what you want me to do.
I have things to do.
I cannot do them if we are dead.
I need to do what grandmère could not.
I do it for you. And I do it for her.
Vous.
Alexa
I asked for help and you answered.
Tu es venu. You helped me. Merci. Mes dieus, merci.
I do not know what I have done to be worthy of you, but I am so grateful and I will do my best to continue to please you. Thank you. Merci. Thank you. Thank you.
There was the tiniest - la plus petite partie de moi qui pensait - maybe I was crazy. That maybe you were...but you came. Vee heard you. He heard your voice. So did Lucas and Jasper, though. That must have been safe - they must be trustworthy if you revealed yourself to them too.
Et s'ils pensent que je suis fou?
We'll all have to be crazy together, I suppose. Lucas said he would prove he is trustworthy. We'll see. Nous verrons. I'll know soon enough.
A part of me hopes so. It would be nice to have friends. Edgewater friends, though? Je ne le sait pas...They are not...Vee is right. If we are going to travel together, we need to trust each other, or...something like that.
You showed me something today. You showed all of us. Someone is taking advantage of the lizardfolk. Or...killing them to take what is theirs. Pourquoi? Why do they need to? That is the thing I have not understood. Spider seems to be so...happy to call our home a dungheap, but it is so beautiful. It is beautiful and tidy and people have...
But...the people - the foresters. They are used to having two or three jobs. Each! Why is there so much work? Why do they need to do so much work?
I thought work was like what Maman does. She runs the house. And the servants at home do one job. They cook, or they clean, or guard or...Vee said his wages go to a charity. And he understands the idea of three jobs at once. I can't imagine Vee doing anything but looking after me and grandmère.
You know, I think I am already doing three jobs. We must stop the lizardfolk killing the people here, and we must protect the dam for now, although I don't think we will be protecting the dam any more (will we still get the money?)...and I need to do what you say I should.
Mais je ne comprends toujours pas. If we break the dam, are we halting progress?
Should we be stopping progress?
I don't think some should have three jobs while others have no job at all.
Maybe they're not trying hard enough...but still. It is my job as someone more fortunate to help lift the others.
I will help others to get more jobs.
Does this mean I have four jobs now? Zut alors...they just keep gathering.
Fear
Alexa
Merde. Lizardfolk are fucking huge. Fucking huge and fucking dangerous. Why didn't Spider or Lucas tell us they would be so big? We could have died. We very easily could have died.
Si nous mourons, who will tell Maman et Papa? If we are gone, how will they know?
Vee says Papa is not mad at me. But...but I am not there.
J'avais peur aujourd'hui. I was scared that something might happen to Vee, I was scared something would happen to me. I was even scared something bad would happen to Jasper et Lucas. I suppose I should get used to feeling this way. I think...I think I need to write home. I think I need to write to Maman et Papa. It has been so long - for me. Everyday is the longest I have been from them.
How did grandmère deal with this? I never asked grandmère about homesickness, about being away from la famille for years. About festivals. J'ai probablement gâché le dîner. Have I ruined the festival?
Maman et moi...we chose the colours together. We planned invitations and looked at the menu months ago. Comment ai-je oublié ça? Things that were so important not long ago. The important things have shifted. They're not so important now. Like a dream... La Chanson takes fear away. It soothes me and tells me I'm doing the right thing...but I am still me.
I miss my bed, and my puppies...and my parents, et grandmère.
I wonder if Vee misses grandmère.
Nous n'avons pas beaucoup parlé d'elle.
I wonder if Lucas misses his family.
I wonder who Jasper misses...Does he miss anyone, or is he fine with his spiders?
12 Seconds
Alexa
Oú est Vee?
I know he is supposed to look after me, but it is also my job to look after him and I can't do that if I cannot see him. Il est mon meilleur ami. My only friend. Je ne peux pas le perdre.
He did this on purpose. He sent me after the others - ces hommes stupides - he sent me away instead of keeping me with him. If I lose him, I will never forgive myself.
He doesn't do this - he said he would not do this until I was comfortable with our travelling companions. Il l'a dit. He said Grandmère had had to split from him a few times to make plans work. But he said he wouldn't do this unless I was comfortable.
He deliberately sent me after them and left me with them.
I am not comfortable.
I am afraid.
Je ne peux pas te voir...et je ne veux pas être seul.
Where is Vee?
Is this what he will do? Send me away from fights because I won't kill? Is that why? Is it because I don't want to kill? Or is it because I am too weak to kill? Am I too weak for him to trust? Why did he send me away? I want to help. I want to help. That's why I'm on this path.
One of many reasons.
Where is Vee?
Beauté
Alexa
La Chanson est forte. Trés forte. Mes dieus. So close...so close...so close.
Is it pleased with me? Have I done the right thing? But I killed.
Is it the killing that was right? C'était juste? Was it ordained? Qu'en pense-t-il? How does it think?
What do I need to do to bring the Song closer? How do I hear more? Y a t-il plus?
Is it that we are closer to what it wants? Or that I am doing the right thing? We haven't been travelling long enough to be anywhere near what Grandmère described.
Is La Chanson pleased or trying to get my attention?
C'est tellement belle. Très. Magnifique.
I will always do as it asks. Toujours.
That is terrifying, but...soothing. I will always do as it asks.
Vee is with me. He is always with me. He always will be.
What were we doing that pleased it? I want to do it again. Encore et encore. If it is the only way to hear La Chanson, I will do it.
Grandmère, did you feel this? C'était vous? Am I following in your footsteps?
Does La Chanson have enemies? Do people hate La Chanson?
No one. No one. Vee must be mistaken. It is too beautiful. Maybe jealous, maybe...but not...
No one could hate such wonder.
J'ai tué une femme
Alexa
I killed a woman. J'ai tué une femme. Je suis desolée. Oh, je suis desolée. Why? I...I... I wasn't thinking. Je ne pensais pas.
Grand-mère, I do not think I can do this. I do not think I am made for this. I'm scared, grand-mère. Why? Pourquoi moi? Why was I chosen for this? How can La Chanson be so beautiful, mais...how can I have power like this from something so beautiful?
She had thoughts and feelings and fears. She had wants and needs. Did she have children? A wife? Husband? How many lives did I destroy because I didn't think?
And how many more did the rest of the group destroy?
Why isn't this une problème pour eux? Why aren't they sad, or...
Has La Chanson accepted this? Is this the right thing to do? It can't be. I do not think it can be.
I do not want this power. I do not want to use it. I do not want it anywhere near me.
But it is inside me. And it is inside my head and it sounds so beautiful.
I want to hate it. I want to hate it for making me feel this way, but then it starts again and oh.
Je me sens calme.
C'est Le Progrès?
Alexa
We have moved on. We have taken a job out of town. It was hot and uncomfortable in the veils. Very hot and uncomfortable. But at least while I wore the veils, ils ne pouvaient pas me voir pleurer.
I keep seeing her body. Le mouvement.
The way qu'il tombé.
I do not like that before I have finished this task, I am going to see more. More hurt. Plus de mort.
I do not want to see it. I do not want it. I do not want it to happen. But I cannot stop it.
I do not have that choice.
Nous avons un travail. We must force a community to leave their homes, hope that the people - the ones we work for - will actually maintain an agreement once we leave. Or we must kill them.
I...
Je n'ai jamais pensé à ce que signifie le progrès.
C'est un progrès?
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