Home..or whats left

I have been recalled home by not only my mom but seemingly the military also. This sounds bad to me. And with the sickness now something is afoot at home. I need to get back as soon as possible. I fear again that I will go back to another war. Just coming from one. I... I am tired. Not sure how much longer i can live this life of war. Constant struggle. I like my friends. And these past months I have come to call them my family. Which...has been hard after jess. I don't want to put them in harm's way again. This war was hard on them as it is. Dragging them around the world again from home. I fear it may be too much. I'm not sure what my father would do. But I sure could use him right now. I miss him. And out lands are in trouble. And he knew them like no one else. Silvanus guide me. I need you the most now.