Wake me up, please

I just want to wake up. At this point, I'm just doing as the dream wants me to do. Except even that doesn't seem to work. I stepped through Lady Lunara's portal and...just ended up back in her forest again. She seemed as surprised as me. And Gabriel seemed stronger: I have memories of being on a ship and making him take an oath of some kind.
 
Then she told me I might be dead, but that she was not sure, I think it was that moment I decided all this was a bad dream. I mean, how could I be dead. I'm here, talking and walking. This is ridiculous.
 
She then made 3 portals; one red, one blue and one green. She told me to choose. I HATE CHOICES!
 
Silla was in the red portal ... and she said was not alive. AHHHH I HATE THIS DREAM!
 
Then, to make things worse Ezra appeared in the blue portal, And Lunara said had to choose to try and save one of them!
 
I am not letting either of them die!!!! So while Lunara left (and said she was off to...die), I tried to get Sillia and Ezra to touch the spear. I thought that if I did that, I could save them both!
 
They both refused, so I decided to be more stubborn than both of them and refused to choose, knowing that we would all die in this stupid dream if they continued to be stubborn. As both of them realised that I was being serious, they raised their hands BUT STILL REFUSED TO GRAB THE SPEAR. So I just made sure it touched both their hands...and we were sent to a new place. Imily was in this...new place.
 
Sillia was explaining to Imily that she had "lost her body" and was just a soul. Then Imily said he didn't know who I was! WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!!! Lady Sillia said she needed to go to a place called "haven" to get her soul back in her body. Haven and Oathkeep seem to be connected. Imily even said that she was DEAD! But she is talking and I can touch her. Does that mean I'm dead also ?
 
While they were talking nonsense, I got a better look at the crystal. It looked like the one in the dream with the Archfae, that big flying creature with horns. Apparently Sillia did not want me to say that in front of Imily. He seemed interested that the Archfae would talk to a half elf.
 
So apparently Lady Sillia needs a vessel. They are not using the spear again; Gabriel is using it! Imily suggested cloning Sillia... and he needs flesh. I'm barely following what is going on, but I don't like it. Please say this is just a big horrible nightmare and that I'm going to wake up.
 
I can't take much more. I think Ezra saw that I was panicking and tried calming me by giving me a hug; I think that stopped me panicking because I just started fearing for my life. SINCE WHEN DOES EZRA GIVE HUGS!
 
Imily came back with Lady Alta and, they found another solution; Lady Alta is going to give some of her flesh to create a vessel for Sillia. It was the most horrific sight. She just let him carve a bit of flesh from her stomach. And it seemed to not be the first time he had done this. There were 3 other pock marks.
 
Someone, wake me up, please.