The magical plant trip we took yesterday has left me unsettled. Though to be fair, EVERYTHING about this island has me uneasy. Not only have we seen evidence of Aryans closer to our nations than they have been in years, but I have seen visions of their past. They do not make any sense! I know that visions rarely do, but even so...my mind whirls at the possibilities and implications.
I was wrong in my earlier presumptions: "TRUE" Aryans still exist, I had forgotten this in my panic over the last few days. Now that I am somewhat able to sit and think again, my memory has grown clearer. The Aryans have harassed my people as well as Camelot and Norden Reunia in years previous. We've heard rumors of them lurking in the sea, but no major activity. From what Ramona has mentioned, the rumors are true. However, I can tell that the news of them being this close to the mainland concerns her. Especially all the established ruins.
And speaking of Ramona...I don't even dare to write the things on my mind... Does that make me a coward? Maybe so, but I honestly don't know what to do. This hasn't happened to me before. Or has it? Have I been so focused on my studies that I haven't noticed this happening to me? ...actually, most likely that is exactly what's been going on. I feel like such a fool now...I have no experience, no knowledge other than what's provided in books. What am I supposed to do?
Gods above, if she heard anything when she was there...I hope that I didn't run my mouth while I was unconscious...I don't know what I would do if she knew. Other than try to shrivel up and die of embarrassment. I mean, I don't have anything to offer her. I'm inexperienced. I'm younger than she is. Haven't done nearly as much as she has. She's so clever, wickedly smart, and she has a good heart. If nothing else, perhaps this tells me something new about myself. I suppose the best I can do for now is try to hide this from her and do everything I can to make sure that we, as a party, and I, by myself, help her ensure the safety of the colony. If all I can do is help her, than I suppose that's what I'll be satisfied with.
Pepper, if I find out that you've found this and told anyone, I'll tan your scaly hide.