Tailiya’s Musings

We find ourselves tied together by some unseen tether. A group of nobodies but alone I know I could have not succeeded in this endeavor, but together we may be able to become more than the sum of our parts.
 
The longer our group of adventurers stays together the more our apparent threads seem to tighten together. Revealing some sort of unseen force that’s pushing us together.
But mind that not we seem to be stronger together anyways, so whatever force that’s pulling us together must be benevolent.
 
Only just recently have I made truth behind my identity known to first William, but then after an overwhelming display of honesty from Konna, it moved me to come forward and come clean with my newly acquired friends if they are being honest with me then I should be honest with them. I hope this does not come back to bite me from behind, but it’s better to trust and be wounded than to never trust at all i suppose, well we will see in time wher this road of political intrigue takes us,I just hope it does not rule us.
 
It definitely came back to bite me as my true identity has now been revealed to those that had power over me and my deception has been laid bare. My father has been ruined I fear and I have done the unforgivable, I fear I may not be redeemed in his eyes.
 
Loosing Kona was a loss that many of our party may find unfortunate as he was a formidable ally and we could rely on him in a tight spot. But his endeavor lead him elsewhere,(it is too bad he took those gloves with him, those would have proven extremely useful in the days to come) and we wish him well.
 
In many ways I am saddened by the fact that I had a hand in Wardells death, I know he and lambert were growing fond of each other. And it hurts me to have to speak to lambert this way, but I feel that I must stand a moral ground or else the cracks in my veneer will show. The things they were doing were unforgivable though, yes that is what I will tell him. Their actions were their wrote of execution.
 
Finally we take flight to my rumor it has been a long time in coming for this expedition, but now it is a multi pronged goal, part political intrigue, part redemption for Valcore (if it’s possible) and for the good of the people being tormented by whatever nameless sovereign that hold sway there. For justice, For clan, For Family,and last but definitely not least, for extremely cool loot.
 
Today I killed an innocent couple in cold blood. On the day of their engagement. I even found their ring. And after I left the man owl bear took their remains and devoured what remained. In my misconceived remorse I fought the owl bear to the brink, and also in a ill-conceived attempt to stop my downward spiral. Left it to suffer rather than a swift dispatching. William though near at hand watching this transpire put down the suffering creature and helped me to see how the law of nature works, and how it now has a hold in me. I hope I can bring in sync the seemingly warring factions within me.
 
A remorse that which has not been felt since the betrayal of Father.
But remorse over betrayal nonetheless.
Failure to recover what has been lost.
A pain that cannot be healed.
Because a wrong cannot be undone.
A mistake no longer able to be forgiven.
Grief of loss that is not mine to have.
But grief nonetheless.
 
A dirge for Lambert
 
 
No more altruism.
 
 
This nameless orc has a reckoning coming the likes of which he has never seen.
 
I’m not sure what our motives were in coming here before. Whatever ideals that may have held my interests, are quickly loosing their meaning. I don’t even know these people. Why did their safety seem so important before, were they worth the value that lambert bestowed upon them. I’m not sure to me they were.
 
 
Forward unto the breach.
 
 
For the first time in days weeks since the root of the tigress laid hold, I have been one with her, and she was me. And I have never felt so whole since..... well for a very long time, nature calls to me and I’m not sure why.
 
We have brought to a finish the one who had no name. The orc bringing chaos to this countryside. The one whose men and abomination brought Lamberts life to close. The blade he fought with and bade us promise to not slay him with upon his defeat, Calls to me with its shade, it’s amaranthine glow, and I find myself bound with a agreement to a being named Umbra. Only time will tell if this was a sound choice.
 
A Desperate decision and a close call lead to almost the annihilation of our entire group, with my mind lost.
But by a hairbreadth crisis was diverted.
I now knew it was in the best interest of not only myself but also my friends to know the depths of my bond with imbra and all that it entails, so they might be able to help aid in its successful usage.
 
With the help of Arandel In bypassing many dangers, we find ourselves at the crossroads of many a way point.
What led us here I can barely remember but now I have a reason to destroy what lies beneath these catacombs, and it will find no mercy from me, and Umbra will feast.