I didn't sign up for this...

So I promised Cliph that I would keep up with my journal whilst on my trip. He said something about self reflection or something. Honestly I stopped listening halfway through and just kind of nodded along and said yes. (I really need to stop doing that. It's going to get me into trouble one day.) The man is just too handsome for his own good, and he doesn't seem to know it? Like why world, why? And he said it all with that stupid cute grin that never leaves his stupid handsome face. This has to be karma for all the wrong I did. It has to be. Like what else can this be?
 
Whatever. It's fine. I'm gonna do this journal thing to show my commitment or what not and maybe work on this whole self reflection thing. We'll see how this goes.
 
Anyways...
 
I did some good today and it feels like it exploded right back in my face. I know, I know. I shouldn't expect to get something in return for just doing a good thing. But dang it, I deserve it. I'm trying. I'm putting myself out there. And now...I somehow got roped into being security of the entire train along with some people who I don't know. Excuse me? How does a train, on its first voyage not have security? Who's bright idea was that. And now...it suddenly falls into my lap. And I can't fucking say no! I was just doing my duty, a guy got shot down in the station and people were freaking out, I had to do something. And I have this mace might as well use it, right? I have more than enough frustrations to let out on fools who want to act up. But I'm not even getting paid for this, and I couldn't even bribe whatever her name was because then it would look bad for the Church and Cliph...and I don't want to do that to them. I'm already a handful as it is, so I guess I'll just swallow back my pride and just do my civic duty and protect this train and the people on it and just hope to Ceiza that nothing gets set on fire. I'm still nailing down that prayer and it's gonna be on my shoulders should anything suddenly decide to combust while I make my way down to Rohawk.
 
Please, please don't let anything be set on fire. I really, really don't want to embarrass myself. Or have the train go up in flames. That too.
 
But beside that whole mess of a situation, I'm not alone in this whole "Oi, you work as security now" shenanigans thing. I made some...friends? Acquaintances? Yeah maybe the latter. And one enemy, cause children are really annoying. First it was Fable who despite their really cute get-up looked like a little wind was going to knock them over. Or they were going to faint from a simple tap on the shoulder. I've never seen anyone so...jittery. And I can't believe I'm saying this but I wanted to make sure they were okay? Like if this were old me I probably would have made her a mark and got some gold from them or something else nice. But now...I wanted to make sure that no one took advantage of them. Look at me being a semi decent person. And gods know Herondale is home to people who would swindle her for everything she had and not have a second thought about it. But Fable seems...really cool, a real doll honestly. She's easy to talk to, if not nervous. But it's a really nice change of pace. They seem like they have a really good head on their shoulders. *insert a Cliph line about learning from others or what not.*(Once again his pretty face distracted me....) Also it's nice to meet someone who doesn't think romance is dead. Even if our matchmaking attempt absolutely failed. Sorry bunny lady, and to the poor sod who's gonna have his heart broken. Oh well...I guess.
 
And yet despite meeting a pretty cool person, I somehow also met a literal heathen and maybe...called them that to their parents. Harsh? ...probably. But the kid was being an absolute brat and were sooo creepy. They are trouble I just know it. And something about them...just isn't right. They know all kinds of magic and turned...purple or something. It was after the fight or something. And look I'm a tiefling, I'm peak oh no demon. But this...child has something else going on and I don't want them anywhere near me. And yet I feel like she's gonna just pop out of nowhere and cause all types of hell and someone is going to have to deal with it. Maybe I'll just drag her back to her parents and be like deal with your brat before I do. Is that too aggressive? Look kids are cute...when they're like three and four. After that they are just annoying little butts who grow up to be bigger annoying butts. Unless they're my siblings cause they can do no wrong. That's a lie, but I would let them get away with it if I could. It's the least I could do for them after being gone for so long. Can't believe the little brat is making me think about them. They have to be so...big now. I wonder if they even remember me.
 
Maybe...I'll send them a postcard. Maybe Mom will actually let them read it? Or she could just toss it in the trash? That sounds like her.
 
Whatever. Next stop I'm gonna send something to them and maybe inquire about him. I'm fixing things damn it.
 
What else? Uhm I got to see a giant minotaur absolutely trample a guy. That was cool. They were not having any of the mayor's shit and a girl can appreciate that. And I know who I'm going to hide behind should things really pop off. Just sayin. Note to self, should probably learn their name.
 
There was also a bird guy who seems shifty to say the least. They just have that air around them. And I know that air. It just billows off people in waves and it's best to just avoid them or your gonna get pulled into whatever trouble they are in. Shifty yes, but also a little moral. They weren't about to let Jennifer or whatever that little brats name was get away with what she did to Fable. I would of liked to see the game he would of played. Doubt kid would of learned anything or that they would change how they act. But look karma will get them eventually. That much I believe in.
 
I still feel like I'm way in over my head. But I haven't reached the point of wishing I was back at Herondale. No regrets. That's good so far. At least for now. I'm gonna just have to take this a day at a time and hope for the best. We'll see how long that lasts. I suppose I really have to see this to the end now. Rohawk here I come.