Tink's Data Entry

(Previous Log Deletion)
(Editor's note, I am a fucking girl with a fucking diary)
 
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She came for my tenth birthday, she came and brought me a bauble, as if that replaced her being gone all this time.
Tyran has left father and I again. I do not understand why she would just leave me here, with this quiet man. I know there is something better for me out there. I know I can be someone to be remembered and feared. Much like her. She is fierce and untamed. Why she laid with this quiet mechanic is beyond me. I will not lay with such men, when it is my time. I will not fall for the weak and timid.
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Father took me to work today. It was following along with his duties and he was amazed that I understood the work. He is a mechanic and machines have always spoken to my heart. But then he went to speak to his boss and one of the cable workers took me to the utility tunnel. He said he would give me credits if I took off my top. His calloused hands were rough and I did not want to. He said if I told anyone he would hurt my papa. I was not angry that he threatened my father, nor that he touched me without permission. I was angry because he thought I was weak and that I could be so easily controlled. I reached out with my anger and pulled a piece of pipe to me with my feelings. Then I bashed him with it. His hot blood splattered my face and when my anger left me, I looked in awe at what I had done. I had pulled the pipe to me. I had willed it to be mine and it was mine.
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I spend my days in school and I am making good marks, but it does not hold my interest. At home I was hanging out with Alfred, my invisible friend, and he brings me things and opens my doors. He is a great companion, who never complains. I have learned to change the taste of foods, and the colors of lights with my thoughts and feelings. Father has been gone more nights than he is here. I believe he s gambling again as our food rations have gotten worse.
But Alfred and I are learning every day. I can now fabricate good parts from useless junk and I have excelled at welding, electronics and design. I use the scrap parts to make actual spare parts and sell them to a chop shop operator named Sacha. The transgender Russian is strange even for Rust. Sacha calls me his "Krasivaya” and I am sure I do not want to know what that means
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I cannot keep my feelings and thoughts in my head anymore. I am afraid if I keep them on my Z-Com tablet it will fail and I will lose them. I am getting them tattooed on my skin. I drew them out in great detail and a Ysoki name Nibbles is going to ink me on my birthday. He works for Sacha during the day so it will have to be in the evening.
 
The session was so painful, but I wanted each and every incantation formula to be with me at all times. The geometry of magic is making more and more sense to me, why doesn’t anyone else see this? Why doesn’t anyone else understand? I have to sleep with Nibbles to pay my debt, but I don’t mind, it is a small price to be independent. I did let him know that if he told anyone he would not make it through the day. I didn’t care about the secret, I just like scaring the little shit.
Alfred likes my tattoos. He didn’t say as much but I could tell by how he quietly looked at them. I showed them the one that summoned him and he did not seem to understand. I have covered them up with my outfit, but father didn’t even mention it was my birthday. When I brought it up he said that there were no gifts this year and I could see he had been beaten.
The next day Sacha came to our house. He gave father a large credit chip and said I was his new “intern”. I didn’t want to go, but father said the internship would keep us in funds for a while, as Sacha had paid dearly for me. He had fucking PAID for me. When the fire grew in my eyes, Sacha kneeled before me and met my gaze. “Krasivaya.. tch tch… I am not the bad guy. I see your engineering marks and I need an engineer in my shop. Do not think of yourself as a slave, but rather a student.” To be honest I wanted to kill him that day, but I was getting away from the quiet man and the silent life and I was about to begin my journey to be someone. Someone people feared and respected.
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Alfred and I stumbled upon something today. I was fabricating parts and I was angry with Sacha for no reason other than the tense way he watches me work. I know what he is thinking. I can “feel” his eyes. Anyways the feeling was intense and when I went to fabricate the parts, something happened and I made a shard of red glass. It seems to pulse with my feelings. I didn’t know what to do with it, so I tucked it in my belt. The next day I found an old plasma sword hilt. The owner of the cruiser had just tossed it out when we were junking his old ship. I tried and tried to make it work but I couldn’t figure out the telemetry. I stuck that in my pocket and was leaving for home.
That night I was tinkering, Yes. TINKering. I mounted the crystal into the hilt. Nothing happened. The fit was amazing. But there was nothing there. I got a beep from Jenba at the bar, and she wanted to get together for a drink and I was going to wave it off, but I had not been out in a very long time, so I went. There we ran into some smugglers from the PACT and they just would not stop hitting on us. Jenba has large breasts and that was not uncommon, but it was the way they leered. Finally I reached over and kissed Jenba. I don’t know why, but I thought if they knew we were into each other they would stop. They didn’t. They cheered and whooped and Jenba looked shocked. When we left they followed us and cornered us in an ally behind the bar. I am not big and was easily overpowered. Jenba was tossed to the ground and the others they cheered as she was mounted. They cheered and the hilt was in my hand and the anger was in my heart and the blade was red like my anger. It glowed and they died. They all died. I came to my senses and Jenba and the boys, they were all hacked to pieces. The marshalls came and took me. They asked what happened but I couldn’t speak. Finally Sacha came and told them to show the cameras. There we were trying to get away, then we disappeared in the alley. Then a red light flashing and swirling and the screams, they all screamed.
They took the hilt but they could not make the blade come out. I told them it was broken, I was trying to make it work, but Sacha just kept staring at me. He didn’t say anything just stared. He knew.
Finally they let me go, since I had no weapon and they searched for the man who did this to the crew. I smiled a little inside. They were looking for a MAN.
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Sacha has stopped staring at me, he still hints that he would enjoy my company at every possible opportunity, but he has not put his hands on me. His eyes, of course, but not his hands. I grow stronger, and better at my job. I am better at my “spells”. For that is what the Ysoki call them. They were at first scared when Alfred would bring me a spanner or hold my light still so I could see my work. Now they are used to this and call me the “Crazy girl”. I need to get off this space station. I need to make this happen. My father is always asking me to eat with him or to visit, but I just cannot look him in the face. I don’t want to see that weak man, who loved a strong woman, and let himself be broken.
Then the Proletariat showed up. A prison ship to be sure, but no one seems to be calling it that. Sacha is refitting her (which is to say I am refitting her). I will leave on this ship. I will endear myself to the all-male crew, show some skin and be the good quiet Asian girl. They will take me because I am valuable to them. I will be off this godforsaken place once and for all. Alfred is helping and I have a crew of 9 Ysoki including Nibbles and his clan. They are good workers and keep secrets. So as I carted my belongings onto the hold and made my own berth, they knew I was leaving soon.
The weapons systems are almost completed and I have met Leonard. Leonard is a sentient space, possibly an android, who is housed in the very ship itself. He has a wonderful personality and he enjoys how I make the ship better. I almost feel like I am making my very first true friend in my life at the tender age of 23. But he just wants something from me. He wants a body. Why would he want a body? So he could impose his will over me. To be the powerful man they all wish to be. I tell you this now I will give him what he needs, and then this ship will be all mine. Peter will be the Captain, and Dag will be the pilot. Orkas will take care of science and Farn and Voss the Security and weapons. But the heart of the Socket; for this ship bears the name of a Ysoki. The heart of the socket belongs to me.
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Sacha finally tried to touch me. I think he knew I was leaving. When I clocked in this morning he called me to his office and rubbed my upper back while he purred about the job I was doing on the socket. I didn’t pull away from him, but I started to see red and maybe I stiffened for he sighed loudly and stepped back. “I am sorry I upset you”. I went to work.
The last of the refits are complete, Craft ID was wiped and beacons were changed as directed. This crew is a curious lot. The pilot is Dag and he is a solid sort but his attention is unfocused. Orcas is a stalwart fellow, but a little too focused. The old soldier Voss has a story to tell, and he tries really hard to keep eye contact with me, and blushes a bit when he fails. Peter is a great mind for strategy, but I wonder how much of his face is mask and how much is truth. Farn is the best and for a few sweet rats he will do almost anything I wish, except let me look over his exo-hauler. I know I could make it better, but he is close to his machine. Not as close as Leonard is to his, as he is living in his machine right now.
The Ysoki crew are leaving for the day, and Nibbles brings me a beer. The can is lukewarm so I know it has been in his backpack all day. We talk about me leaving as he has guessed my motivations. He wants to come along, but the crew lost a Ysoki near to them and he knows they will not accept him. We are warming up to a real good bye when the proximity alarm rings twice and no one vouches for the ship. I bring up near mapping scans from the console of the Socket. The ship is Huge! New Horizons Trade Company “The Judgement Day” At once the second ship slams into the station, it is a Vesk boarding craft. Nibbles scurries off to his family, and I try to see Rangel, my father one last time. But soon the crew is racing towards me and there are NHTC soldiers firing at us. They have body suits and fancy rifles. Voss and the rest tear into the troops. Sacha is pinned under a conveyor and I wanted to kill him before I left. I wanted to make sure the last thing he saw was his “beautiful one” as ugly as anything he had ever witnessed. But instead I took off with the crew, they weren’t waiting for anyone, they were making their move.
Disengaged, Peter started barking orders. Farn and Voss manned the gunnery and Orkas took the science chair and patted the engineering seat next to him. “Hop in Tinker Bell” I sat down “is just tink” I said calmly. This was my first battle, my first flight...my first everything.The Judgement Day had come through their own portal, a Fold Gate, allowing them to travel great distances. Peter and Dag fly us through their own gate in their own wake, while they set upon Rust and Rust breaks apart. At first the crew thought Rust was destroyed, but I told them it is a design, Rust is 19 different ships who connect together and create a station. Once we were through the other end of the Fold Gate things were quiet for a moment, and I was far away from anything I had known. I was ripped from my life and thrust into this chair. I was on my way to greatness. Off the port viewing screen the Crystal Sea Nebulae. I know now why so many take pictures of it, but none of the pictures capture it. It is so vast, so beautiful. I am at peace.
We are quickly hailed and sensor scans pick up the rear guard of the Judgement day, they were left behind for just a maneuver as what we did. Peter is very quick to reply, that they were accidentally sucked into a Fold Gate that was not on any charts. They other ships come to escort us and Farn and Voss take them our quickly and Dag has the ship literally dancing in the ether. Orcas and I maintain systems and try to help. Then we go and salvage the others. Leonard and I chat while the crew go over the wreckage. He was worried about his first fight. I assure him while it was my fight too, that I thought he did handsomely.
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I was looking around on my ship, for the Socket is Leonard and they are mine, I care for them and they are growing dear to me. Behind the Bridge there is a silver metal staff with an hourglass on it’s head. It literally pulses with magical kanji. I take it and go to the bridge and ask the Captain if I may have it. “Can you use it.” Peter asks, and I tell him yes, but to be honest, I will need to attune it to me and learn more before I can wield it. The staff is called Tempro and it stores charges like a battery but magical charges and not electrical ones. She manipulates time, it can make on faster or slower or for a few moments it can stop time in your area. There are other things it can do. I can wield it defensively and it will slow attacks and make them easier to block. Peter asked if I could use this staff. I think we can all use Tempro. Alfred is very excited and for an hour he holds it in front of me as I sit in my lotus and attune it to my will.
We are in the drift, and travelling without a flight plan or destination. It has been days and none of this new crew have ordered me around or tried to touch me. I am beginning to feel comfortable. I have added two new Kanji tattoos to my skin, and I can go invisible now. It is literally just tapping into the ley stream, and shutting off all the visibility sensors of those around you. like those pre-gap green screen movies. Alfred has always been invisible to others, and that is where my inspiration came from.
Looks like they are going to try to land this giant ship on a jungle planet in the near system. .
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Dag has “landed” us on a jungle planet. The canopy is high and the air is thick and wet. The crew has ventured into a nearby village. We were set upon by natives and they were so camouflaged that I thought they too were invisible. We there met a tribe of native a few technological evolutions behind us, they had crude weapons and natural fiber clothing. I noticed the men were dominant here as and they had a holy man not of their tribe who spoke our language. There was one warrior dressed in black with much contempt for the crew and I can tell he wants to show our crew how large and impressive his penis is. They all wish to compare sizes and beat their chests. We are not so evolved as to get past that. I heard Peter say “Slow is smooth and smooth is fast.” I do not know what that means. I think it has to do with sex.
The seeker translates for us and we are invited to stay with the village and partake of their food. Then the seeker took the crew away to speak and learn and I went back to the shop. Leonard and I listened in to the conversation. The seeker is an android, like Dag. But I don’t know if others know Dag is an android. I do not think it matters but secrets are secrets and this is not my secret to tell. The seekers says the tribe has a ritual and we can partake, as it will aid his agenda. He wants us to remove an artifact from the jungle so the tribe can live on in peace. I am sure it is a weapon. We agree to partake in the contest, but I am not so sure I wish to hunt beasts in the field. I would like to race to the artifact though. I would like to race against the dark one ad show him my penis.
The crew heads back to the camp and they ask me to join them to look at the enercycles and a quad-runner they call “Buggy. I assume it is the large amount of insect intestines in the front view panel. When I arrive at village I am met by a throng of children and the dark one. He blocks my way and I am about to act when Peter and the crew come out to confront him. Then we are all quieted by the arrival of Rayna. She is the chief’s wife and she is beautiful. He skin is dark and smooth and her eyes are clear and intelligent. I can tell by her actions, she does not care for this warrior, and while he obeys he and his lackeys have disdain in their eyes. I lean on the hourglass staff and giggle a bit. Then I levitate a small rock nearby and dance it on the air at my whim to the delight of the children who are gathered and Rayna. The dark warrior is taken aback and not used to such things. I sit the rock gently on the ground and stroll passed him as if he did not matter in the least. Peter and the Crew are with me and we meet the Chieftan and Rayna and I stand next to each other sizing each other up while the men take measure of each other again. Tomorrow they hunt for the Shugguth.
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The crew must find the Shugguth and then slay it, they task is to find it within 7 days. Thankfully they are seasoned criminals and used to spotting things out of the ordinary. They find the tracks and head to the lair. The tribe is amazed at their speed and cunning, but I know these men, and they are good at what they do. Even if they may be a little loud when doing it. I am quite pleased to learn the tribe has been here all along. They did not only follow us, but they are arrayed around a large stone pit where the shugguth lair is. The dark warrior Shu Shu is standing at the side of the pit with his folks. So I remove my invisibility and stand with him, ignoring him as if the bottom of that pit is the most important thing, and he is insignificant. It isn’t long before Voss and Peter take the center of the arena while Orkas and Dag flank to each side.
Then the tribe lowers a young girl into the pit. What in the actual fuck is this? A fucking female sacrifice so the men can prove themselves? I am enraged. I cast hoverdisk and lower her safely to the ground so she does not get harmed, she is stunned and boys get busy fighting the shugguth and protecting her. I then cast grease so the damn thing can’t lunge at my crew…no The Crew. They do not need me nor I them… they are stepping stones to my greatness, not family. THE Crew takes care of the shugguth and the tribe is confused that they saved the girl. Shu Shu the shithead is grunting in disapproval, that act alone lets me know I am on the right side of this choice.
The Chief goes back to the village and they eat shugguth and the Crew gets warrior tattoos. This raises their standing with the warrior clan. While they party continues Rayna takes me to her hut and we speak. We have a smoke from a pipe and it relaxes me. She congratulates me on not becoming a warrior and asks me if I will help her. It seems Shu Shu and his clan are actively trying to unseat her husband and she would like to name me her Champion in the race in four days. I ask if I will be required to win the race, for I am no pilot, and she says no. She wants me to kill Shu Shu. I should have perhaps asked for payment or even hesitated, but I have wanted him dead since I met his gaze that first day. I agree and she asks that I keep the arrangement secret. The surprise of me being named to the race will be enough for Shu Shu to be taken off guard. I also agree to that.
The next day Dag asks me to look at the enercycles and the “buggy”. I have a sit down with Alfred and our toolbelt, and confide in Leonard a time or two, but we have the vehicles tweaked for the race. While I was working on that the crew is treated to new mounts. They were large quadrupeds with both scales and feathers. They are called shotalashu and they look like rat-horse-oni. I asked if I could enter the pen and check them out and I was told that they would kill me for I do not have tattoo. I showed them my tattoo but they shook their heads. I do not have “man tattoo”. Peter and Voss have taken to their steeds and practice riding them. Orkas and Dag are pilots by nature they will ride the enercycles. I enjoy their boyish competitions. They are like young men trying to beat the other, but also making each other better in the process. They created a translator. I studied it last night and the technology makes sense to me, I created a new kanji on my skin that will help me to understand others as they speak to me and allow them to understand my reply. Peter and others have used my kanji now and they seemed to have honor when using it, I noticed Peter pretend he had just learned a few words and spoke like a child, The deception was one of kindness, like telling they aged they are beautiful or a man that he is intelligent.
I have learned more kanji. From the staff I can fathom how to quicken my time, and even a few around me. I can hasten myself. The staff is charged with magic like a batter, then I can convert magic to energy and arc electricity from my palm as if a bolt of lightning from a static storm. It is good but I have destroyed Exhaust panel G-06. I fabricated a replacement from the smoldering wreckage and no one has yet noticed. But then they rarely come back to my area of the ship.
Leonard and Farn. I do not know why I am so lazy. I forgot to tell you that Farn is revered here. When my large vesk friend left the ship, the villagers fell about him. Their prophesy included a vask in their past who left this ship and the artifact we were to gather for the Seeker. He is awed by the adoration they show him. He is eating it up like sweet rats, the big lug.
Leonard is growing more confident in his situation, but he seeks a body. In our long talks about systems and such he tosses in statements about yearning to stroll, and freedom to move and be his own man again. I tried creating a body for him in secret but the craft is beyond me, there are those who could help, once we leave here, we should try to get him the aid he needs to be whole again.
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The night before the race the crew asked if I would be racing again. I knew it was a secret, but I told them I would try. They did not seem satisfied, but I hope I have quieted their suspicions for now. I have readied my hoverdisk kanji and charged the staff and spell sword. I cannot wait until tomorrow. I met with Rayna and she made sure my role was clear. ShuShu has won this race 14 years in a row, he was to die in the race tomorrow, for sometimes that happened. Each racer was armed and this would be my first true test, for Shu Shu was a great warrior. He was also a great pain in the ass, and a horrible person, but a great warrior as well.
When they lined the men up for the race and the seeker had blessed the fighters, the Queen announced her Champion, when she passed over Shu Shu and named me, the throng of men all gasped as if struck. I strode past Shu Shu and his black steed and they took a step back from me. Then I cast hoverdisk and waited. The crew was ready to go, for when the sounding horn went, they took off like shots from plasma lasers. Dag and Orkas were out of sight into the dense foliage before I could see which way they went, my focus was on the dark skinned one. Then Voss and Peter spurred their steeds and lead the throng of tribal warrirs into the brush, They already started beating and kicking at each other. I held place in front of Shushu and cast the reverse of hast on his great black steed, it was slowed visibly and rider and steed walked from the starting gate in last place. Shu Shu kicked and screamed and glared at me and tossed a spear at my head, but I easily ducked the blow. His two lackeys stayed behind to fight with me. I gathered up more ley magic and sent an arc of lightning surging to them. Shu Shu ducked to the side, but in doing so let his lackey be struck straight on by my blast. Rider and steed stood for a while in charred fascade of life, then crumbled to the ground. Shu Shu seemed undaunted so I backed up a pace to keep my distance. The last lackey tried to net me but it flew wide, tangled in a branch and he nearly netted himself. Shu Shu’s spear re-appeared in his hand and he threw it again scoring a hit as I had not seen that coming. Lightning coursed down the spear and I was gravely hurt. I took another shot with my arching surge kanji and got a direct hit to Shu Shu and his black mount. The net thrower recovered but did not get a chance to try again. I cast my haste kanji and again my surge went wide. Then Tempro spoke to me as I released my last bolt “You can do better young master, let me show you.” Shu Shu was charging forward with his spear and Tempro stopped time. Everything stopped, the water did not fall, the birds did not fly, and I strode forward with my spell sword and I cleaved the head from his stupid shoulders. It just sat there even where my plasma blade went through his neck. Then time came rushing back and the lackey turned and fled, and Shu Shu died and the birds flew and I picked up his spear and his head and adorned my disk with my trophy.
Then I cast invisibility and I followed the boys to their winner circle. Dag had won just beating Orkas, but Vos and Peter made a good show, and Farn was there waiting for us. I made a show of giving Shu Shu’s head to the Queen as an apology for coming in DEAD last, but the gesture was not lost on the tribe. Farn opened the door to the artifact and we were lead inside. Peter stopped and asked me what I was doing making deals with the queen and killing Shu Shu. I smiled. He is in charge and his pride is hurt I think. But I will let him run the crew, and I will gain my power and I will be the one the universe will remember. I will be beautiful and terrible, like my mother, and like Rayna.
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Absalom Station, the pinnacle of wealth and prosp[erity. As the Socket approaches we see Judgement day is moored in orbit. I hate the sight of that big ship with all her escorts. It looks evil. I know it is a thing and things are not good or evil, but I feel ominous as we approach.
When we get there the crew sees that Alexander Grimwold the Admiral of the Judgement Day on trial for his actions at Rust. The Stewards of the Station are grilling him hard on his actions, but he is back-straight telling them he was outside jurisdiction. The open void is open for a reason. Their laws do not apply there and he is right. That is why Rust is there. Was there.
Later Grimwold is on the Brutal Sun News (BSN) and he is being interviewed by a beautiful asian human named Tasha Nuun. She has black hair and too large eyes that pull the viewer closer. I like her very much. Captain Pete has Leonard send our footage of the attack on rust sent to her. Leonard is my sweet friend, but sometimes sad, and he does this thing for Captain Pete.
 
We find out later she was suicided by someone. The Absolom news feed has many theories, maybe her boyfriend’s wife killed her, or she is faking the death to release her new album “Newsworthy: Tupac Remastered” where she raps news stories over old Tupac beats, that guy will never die.
 
Orkas says he has a lead on our Adamantium and Dag has a street race that seems super keen. I run inventory numbers with Captain Pete and we arrange for upgrades on the Socket.
We are getting hull and armor and drift engines done and Farn gets a night out. I have leonard open a tracker on Farn’s comms in case he gets into trouble, but he just has a lot of sex and eats more than nine whole ass people.
Captain Pete hired a medic. He thinks he is really funny like dads think they are really funny. He is dumb and he doesn’t touch my things so I have not wanted to kill him yet.
 
Brightleaf got the thunder spear and a bay to grow food in, she seems pretty happy now.
I see why Orkas was in jail. He knows a TON of bad people. Like I know a lot of bad people, but when we get to town he is here like a minute and has a buyer for the extra adamantium.
 
((OH I keep forgetting Grimwold seen my super cute staff and eye balled it at the press conference. Then he invited Capn Pete to his ship but we said no and invited him to our ship and he said no. So he sent Capn Pete a message and it was that fucking Cyborg trangender cocksucker Sasha. That bitch sold us out and turned over all our tracking info to Judement Day. NHTC doesn’t like unmarked adamatium on the market so we need to get this stuff sold off quickly))
We head to sub level 6 and it looks like Rust! It isn’t the pinnacle of anything but dirty dealing. We are going to meet Gwen but when we get there Gwen is a combat robot sent by Gan Kru Corporation. You remember they were the ones who owned the Proletariat and all the adamantium the Socket has now. Oh they must not be happy with us. So Gwen was a shiny black killing machine. Dag couldn’t hit it, Orkas couldn’t hit it and Captain Pete couldn’t hit it. So I cast haste to give them more chances to be inept at hitting it. It worked great.
Then Capn says I got me a big pocket. I think to myself. What a great time to share hosiery tips. But this pocket is extradimensional space, since Gan Kru made Socket have Leonard in it, maybe we can get Leonard into this body. So He opens this (I shit you not) 6 inch hole in reality and tried to stuff a 7 foot killer robot in the hole. I cast grease. Because a small asian girl knows the power of good lubrication.
Captain Pete grapples it, Orcas grapples it and Dag grapples it and eventually Captain Pete he looks right at me and twitches his stupid moustache and BAM he shoves old Gwen right into the pocket hole thingy. Easy Peasy.
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Orcas took the spider ship Eclavdra and left us, he is scouting for some sort of secret mission Capn Pete put him on. I don't really miss him, he was not mean or nice to me, so it's not like Vorr or Farn or even my Leonard. We pick up a Ysoki named Boner. (Groan) It would be so nice to not had to deal with cock jokes every time I turn around on this fucking ship. Brightleaf is really nice and the new doctor does not need to be killed. So I think I can handle the new rat. He isn't like the Rust crew of ship mechs I worked with, he is different.
 
WE WON A TRIP! Well Capn Pete won a trip, but really it is a vacation for all of us to New Elysium. I can't wait. We round our course for the new place and the flight is pretty smooth. As we arrive there is a distress call from Some little boat and Capn Pete says "We do the right thing" which I would think is keeping our nose out of pirate business, but it turns out "the right thing" is enabling the weak to live and the defeat the strong. I am baffled by this good and bad thing they talk about. ON Rust if someone is an asshat you put your spell sword though their belly. It improves their mood and lets others know to treat you nicer. You only have to do that once or twice.
 
So anyways we save that little boat and it has some sports ball team called the Buzzard Babes or something on it and Vorr cums in his pants. Even Dag seems impressed by this news and I swear Capn Pete even almost smirked his moustache. The testosterone levels are at a new alltime high,
 
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Oh fuck yes. I spent some time in the Arcane Lab and found out a thing or two about the hourglass staff. This is my baby now. But more importantly...NEW ELYSIUM...
 
We met the boss man Filip he is really short. Like Ysoki short. You know what I mean? He seems like a player but I can't give up time for little finger weiner. I don't know what it is about being on station again, but this girl needs to get laid.
And just as I think that, I meet Dr. Sidroni. Oh she has brains. she talks about installing this app on our devices. I volunteer right away. I am way too forward and she can see I am interested...but she is not. DANG GIRL you is so fine. For some reason the rest of the crew hesitates to load the app. but when i log in, it gives me 5,000Cr to spend in shops. Oh fuck me gently with a plasma knife. I am getting a spa. YES! YES! YES! with the money we have from this haul and my newfound wealth I am gonna be broke as fuck when I get back on the Socket. I relay to Leonard and he reads my comms fine.
 
Then that afternoon I go to the spa and it is amazing. The machine there steams my skin and exfoliates. I get everything waxed and my hair done. I shave the right side of my head and realize I open up more skin for arcane tattoos. It also shows off the terminal jack system in my cerebral computer. Also Dr. Sidroni herself is down there and wants to know how the App is working. I tried to be cool, but her brain is fine as fuck. Like I know we can have real good conversation... but she seems too focused and turns me down hard.
 
But I get a real meat dinner and a bottle of fine red and get my brain to shut off for the night.
 
So I am good and fucking hung over the day when we have the weirdest thing happen. Like we are all shopping and having a good time when we get in a real fight. Like Vorr and I killed this person. Then out of no where like our mind-scene changes and we load a new algorithm and we killed an old lady. That is when we meet Zane Kaphol the security guy. Oh this mother fucker needs to take two steps back. I remember the rules and ask Capn Pete to kill this guy and he quickly tells me know and before I can assure him I can handle it he says "no, Tink" in that I mean it sort of way. Now I need to spin my brain power so I can find a way to provoke this sumbitch into a death duel. I think I might hate him more than Sacha and that he/she cunt needs to take a quick walk in the void.
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Sorry scattered update but shit is unreal right now. Capn Pete said I tried to fuck him. Like he believes that and even when I show him security tape of me on station while he is on ship...Then we are all sent to our rooms. We are on lock down. The Buzzblades duked it out with us at a pool party and Vorr seemed upset. I did get to fuckup that Tok Ysoki prick that keeps filming my bad side. So I hack the lock and we are about to GTFO when we get a message from Romi and Indigo-13 top meet them at the big metal hatch. I know this is a lot to undertake in a short amount of time, but it is hectic. I am not sure what is real and what I am making up.
We get a mission to retrieve a corpse and it is a fucking trap. I made the holodisk and got us the fuck out of there. We are getting made paid right now.
 
Oh I also got laid. Not much to talk about he was okay, but he had a huge throbbing security card. I used that shit until it locked down. Ah well it isn't always easy being the best fucking technomancer in the galaxy.
 
Oh one last thing. I have new arcane tattoos on my arm. I don't remember putting them there. They work and I am happy for that, but this place is really messing with my mind.
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I wasn't going to put this in the journal but I need to let someone know. I got a message in my dream a lady of pain and pleasure. She offered me gifts if I worked with her. She has taught me "PAIN REFUGE" when I take wounds it makes me a better fighter, but I also take extra damage. I think this is why the security guard got to tie me up and the things I made him do. He almost closed my left eye. It was the pain that got me off so much more than his actual performance. He was so weak laying there, spent, that I took his card and left.
 
The next time the voice offered me to learn more, to manifest more of the pain and pleasure. I said yes. I wanted to bein charge of my own choices. She said I could choose, it was my will and not hers. I will not be oppressed. And she laughed and said I would want to learn the manifestation of "PAINFUL CLARITY" when someone tried to take over my brain, I can harm myself and will be more resistant to the control. I find daily pleasure in small and private pains. Last night I held my spellsword so close to my leg I could smell the flesh bubble up. it was only for a second, but I have never felt more alive and I have never been so horny.
 
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