Dreamer

Somnia Noctun (a.k.a. Sunny, Som)

"I think. I feel happy?" she laughed, a boisterous confused one at that!
Somnias hands held tightly to Vexzins, beganing to blink away tears and already starting to mumble apologies over the reaction!
"Sorry, heavens, pff, um, yeah! Uh! I don't really know how to react right now? It's been so long since i've felt anything genuine in a while! How dramatic! Oh! No, oh-" her laughter continued, one of her hands letting go of Vexzins so she could wipe at the bottom of her eyes to keep at bay the tears that threatened to fall. "I feel so silly saying that, so dramatic! But. Pff, it, I. I can't remember the last time I felt genuine anything!"

Though the tears threatened to fall, it was Vexzin who began to do all the crying. Almost immediately breaking out into tears! Opting to let go of their held hands and squeeze Somnia in her arms! "I-I'm! Happy t-t-too! I, I am! I'm always ha-happy with you! And! I'm glad I can be m-ma-making you as happy as you make me!!" she sobbed loudly, enough for the two of them.

Physical Description

General Physical Condition

A little underweight. She's got wild hair that can't be tamed!!! There's scars all around her body, major ones being: a thin one over the bridge of her nose, gnarly looking one that loops around her hand, and another gnarly one across her throat and down a wrist.
There's a crow tattoo over her heart with its wings outstretched. Another leg sleeve tattoo with flowers and vines over her right leg knee down.

Facial Features

Thickish eyebrows, button nose, heart shaped face

Identifying Characteristics

Leg tattoo, over the heart tattoo, and horns that have begun to curl.

Special abilities

Can put people to sleep with her mind!

Apparel & Accessories

Their outfits tend to differ! They used to be very modest, sticking to a large sweater and skirt. Now she can hop from all sorts of dresses and accessories!

Specialized Equipment

Archery!

Mental characteristics

Personal history

>Stupidly long until i fix it later.
The first few sweeps of life on Alternia with their lusus were good, they got by.
They picked up an interest in gore due to their lusus[a large multi-eyed crow] bringing them it quite often in an attempt to feed their wiggler. Somnia never ate it, but, it became a symbol of affection and love. Leading to their weird affectionate fixation with it!
Most of their young life was learning to hunt and garden to learn to support themself. Along with other interests like knitting, sewing, archery, bug collecting, etc.
Somnia was a bit of a rowdy child, quick to curse and snap at strangers. She occasionally got herself into trouble with her antics and disagreement with the cast system they were forced into, on one occasion she received heavy scarring all around her hand when she angrily went about breaking into and tearing down a barbed wire covered farm. Believing that a highbloods abundant food supply should be shared rather than privatized. Highbloods shouldn't get all that they do and refuse to share any of it!

[Now here's all the junk that happened after I started to rp her.]
When they were about 6 sweeps, she got in over her head after arguing with a highblood when they had decided the right way to remind her of her place was by simply. Owning her. PWNED. No. The whole slavery shebang.
In an attempt to free herself from her initial shackles, she ended up accidentally breaking one of her wrists. Very cringe. The young highblood wasn't very sure where or what his plan was from there, solely keeping her around for chores and accompanying him in jobs here and there. After a little over sweep together, Somnia had slowly begun to become less volatile since the dynamic between the two(despite the gross intention of keeping the brownblood as a slave) was more that of bickering friends. Not that she hadn't tried many times to escape knowing that the highblood wasn't at all sure of what he himself was doing or if he even WANTED to be doing this! Her attempts were always stopped due to the fact he had been quick to stop/catch her in order to make sure he fit into the royal place in the cast he held. What kind of shitty highblood gets bested by their property.

Big cringe; After a few months together, the slavery idea he intended was long over. Though, Somnia had stuck with him via her own choosing for another sweep, having spent most of her time with him convincing him to aid lowerbloods whenever the chances were given. The highblood having revealed to her he was enamored with her from the start fairly early on. SUPER cringe. She of course held NO romantic feelings in return, vocally bitter over the disgusting connotations on why he initially wanted her in his possession. However! Since she gained from it via his power and wealth, she remained his friend. To some extent. His company was also appreciated. She was lonely , even if she refused to acknowledge it.

Eventually they parted ways. And by that I mean she decided one day while he was out buying supplies that she would go. A burst of realization that she wasn't growing as a person, she was enabling the two of them and living a life she didn't want. Part of it also being the bitter feelings she couldn't let go. She took what she needed while leaving behind all the extravagant and expensive gifts he'd given her over their time together, and she left with her lusus to return to their hive they hadn't seen in ages. Who knows what happened to him. She sure doesn't.

By now she was far from the rowdy rude child she had been! Having spent almost two sweeps traveling and interacting with all sorts of people, things of course changed. Initially, she had learned to put on a smile and feign kindness to get what she wanted as well as keeping herself on the good side of the highbloods they'd met. Until...she realized it was second nature at this point, being kind, smiling, being empathetic, caring, etc. The validation from it was what had become so appealing. To smile, to laugh, and make someone else smile and laugh from doing so! To wear your heart on your sleeve and have others do the same? Absolutely fantastic. The intentions may have been disingenuous, the things she said and did may have been fake, but, the responses? Those were real.

Somnia at almost 8 sweeps now was the exact opposite of who she used to be. She was kind, acted cheerful, quick to laugh and accept people into her arms. She was still fairly depressed and lonely, however with this change in attitude, she made new friends. Reconnected with old ones. Started to actually FEEL a little better. And things were looking up! The line of where she was being disingenuous with how she acted had started to blur. It became who she really was, eventually, still with her temper on certain things if she was rubbed the wrong way, not afraid to voice her thoughts and anger.
Entering the game was overwhelming, scary. Things were different FAST. At least she was able to handle it as her and her friends did their best to figure out what they were doing and what they were GOING to do. Here's where she also friended people within the dream bubbles! Gaining herself a matesprit AND a moirail. Dakari and Quathr.

Dakari and her teased each other quite often, their relationship having been pretty rushed. With both young adults having been caught up in the fun IDEA of being together. Somnia liked him for his carefree attitude and their snippy back and forths, it was fun! It was harmless.

The encounter with Quathr, she'll be honest. Was like a cupids arrow to the heart! If she wasn't already dating Dakari, she knew she would've pursued Quathr. Luckily, her friend Nezery was quick to jump the gun in pursuing him romantically. Which in her opinion,was perfect. The closer she got with Quathr, the sooner she was aware of the truth! They were meant to be MOIRAILS. It was absolutely perfect, they were a match made in heaven. Pale ways of course. And moirails they became, since Somnia shared her problems and he shared his(the only problem being was he would get ahead of himself with his emotions and sometimes completely ignore his moirails advice until it heavily backfired. Which Somnia saw as fine, her job as a moirail was to be there for him!)

Things were great, she had friends, she had fun. Some problems sometimes, but, it was all fine. Things felt...good. Happy even. Even if it doesn't last forever. Problems became more frequent, her and Dakari started to become very strained. Dakari clearly held romantic feelings for his own moirail, it was no secret to anyone. He started to ignore her feelings, making everything about himself. Somnia over time began to become more within herself, thinking it was better to bite this off as a personal problem she herself needs to get over. She became more accepting of things thrown her way, standing up for herself wasn't the answer. People got upset at her, Dakari especially would twist it so that she was the one causing the problems in their relationship. Emotional manipulation was how he began to play this game towards not only her, but his moirail as well.
It became too much eventually, when Somnia received an unsolicited kiss from a friend[enemy of Dakari] and her matesprit laughed it off. Resulting in enough being enough, and Somnia breaking up with him. Unfortunately this wasn't where things would get better, her moirail also dealing with quite a lot thus fueling her need to keep silent on her own emotional dilemmas. After that it was a series of more emotional manipulation from Dakari, using his own life as a tool to try and have Somnia take him back. BLEGH. Not to mention an oliveblood began to show their face around there a little before the breakup, quickly setting their sights on Somnia. The oliveblood was no better, emotionally manipulative just the same. Becoming angry and toxic towards Somnia when she couldn't recuperate their feelings. The suddenly. It stopped. The oliveblood, Dakari, both gone. There was time to breath. As well as a friend, Azazel, revealing his feelings towards Somnia. Who she, after thinking it over for a good few days, voiced her own feelings in return.

And again. For a while. Things were nice. Really nice. He was a matesprit who loved her, who voiced his dedication. Expressed his feelings. This was love, true and warm. With her moirail and her new matesprit. As well as some friends. The feeling of loneliness muffled. She was usually by her matesprits side, unless her moirail entered the room. Her moirail who was always ready for when she'd start to run across the room into his arms.

THEN. AGAIN. Things began to skyrocket down, the oliveblood came back. Volatile and angry, betrayed. Most of Somnias friends also began to disperse, either driven away from their own drama or simply having their own busy lives to tend to. Her session had begun to also take bad hits now that the fight against the black king drew near. The oliveblood voiced their distaste for everyone Somnia knew, her moirail, her friends, her matesprit, etc. Really drilling it into Somnias head that no one actually cared about her! They were all fake. They all had terrible intentions to use Somnia. It was wild. How no one could love her, truly, like the oliveblood could.

To add to this. Her moirail had started to emotionally tank, confiding with her about his issues and the two talking about it. One of these days. He made an offhand comment about how it would've been easier to have been matesprits with Somnia. In which she laughed and revealed her initial crush until she realized their place was meant to be moirails. It's a twist when he suddenly jumps on this. Talking to her about how they were the ones meant to be together. Her disagreement with this at first started to subside when what he said started to spring up doubt in her own feelings. Was she sure she only felt pale? What if they were meant to actually be matesprits?


Did they want to try it out?


Adding to all the drama going on. The two end up sparking up an affair! Scandalous. Feelings were confusing! She wasn't sure what she wanted anymore. She loved her matesprit, she loved him so much. But! With her moirail. It was such a deeper feeling that she couldn't put into words. Except she knew she couldn't have both. In a last ditch effort to sort out her feelings, she tried talking to the only friend she had left. The oliveblood.

What a clown, Somnia. That ended. TERRIBLY. It only made things worse, really what could she have expected. Not only with how angry the oliveblood became, but, with how OBVIOUS the affair was tbh. TBH. Somnia and the goldblood were so CLEARLY much more than pale with their quiet affectionate actions and words towards the other. The affair ends when Quathr wants her to decide, to stop dragging his feelings with her indecision. Bitter words spoken. In a fit when it all became so overwhelming, she angrily yells how no one could ever hate her as much as she hates herself, that who he knew and loved wasn't her. It all was too much. It was her own acknowledgement of her own feelings as well. She was depressed, she was full of such toxic self hate, she wasn't even sure of who she was as a person anymore! Everything she was doing was disingenuous again, the cheerful attitude and kindness was all to make other people happy with NO regard for her own feelings anymore. Her own sense of self was gone.

And.

He agreed.

He agreed that he wasn't sure if who he loved was truly her.

He was right to think this. Right to SAY this. She knew it!! Unfortunately. Rationality was shrouded by her paranoia, her anxiety. That the oliveblood was right! That no one would ever truly care for her as she is. And this would set off chain reaction to their future interactions. After this things settle to some sort or normalcy, their feelings obvious, but Somnia having made her choice.

She chose Azazel, she wanted to try and return to how things were before they flipped. They'd even spoken about it all and tried to find a middle ground, both really wanting to make this relationship continue to work.

Did it work out? No. OF COURSE NOT LMFAO.

Her feelings were no longer all that there. He knew it. Somnia and her ex-moirail even continued to express their romantic feelings as much as she'd tried not to. So in the end, Azazel left.
She should've been sad. I MEAN. She was!!!!! Though it wasn't the deep grating sadness she would've expected.


Things after this kept a similar rhythm.
The oliveblood stayed in her life, manipulative and toxic, feeding Somnias paranoia and anxiety in attempts to one day gain her romantic affection via manipulation. Even going as so far as to violently keep those away that held romantic feelings for the brownblood [strangling someone who remarked finding her cute.] People frequently came and went from her life, with Somnia no longer attempting to deepen bonds with people due to how frequently they tried to romantically woo her and leaving once she expressed disinterest.
The oliveblood and her ex, Dakari, would leave pretty bad emotional scars that would affect her even up to now.
[[Nvm ive lost the brain power to write the rest of it up to date. i'll just rewrite everything even shorter smfh

Gender Identity

Nonbinary
[She/Her] [They/Them]

Sexuality

Bisexual

Education

Her lusus as well as self taught experiences.

Mental Trauma

Constant emotional abuse and manipulation has lead her to be very within herself and paranoid. Almost incapable of believing anything positive sent her way or felt about her.

Morality & Philosophy

Everyones equal! The less fortunate should be helped! Everyone can be more than what they are so everyone should be given a chance for change!

Alignment

Neutral good

Gender

Female

Eyes

Brown

Hair

Black and wavy

Skin Tone/Pigmentation

Gray

Height

5'4"