Dark Infinitum

From the Desk of Chronias - Entry: Dark Infinitum

Well hello Chroniclers! It's a pleasure to have your eyes upon my work yet again to explain what our leader of the dark shadows is comprised of! See this is a document from a long time ago. Feeling like eons more every time I look at it. However, that's a story for another time.

My understanding of the substance known as dark infinitum is this. Eclipse is comprised of dark matter, which he refers to as the substance dark infinitum. Infinitum is the name apparently of not just the city I found him and met him in all those timelines ago, but ALSO the name of EVERYTHING IN EXISTENCE. So, the opposite of existence... you see... is non-existence. My biggest concern in writing this is that it will force Eclipse to believe he does not exist. Writings are... unfortunately very powerful. The second your body begins to write with a scroll or magically have the scroll write down your thoughts for you, it will instantly be read by Calypso to be interpreted no matter where you are. Even the Dark Infinitum Paradise we thrive in known as Lagharia can also be targeted and be destroyed by Calypso, no hesitation, without a moment's notice. It's a true miracle I've been "allowed" to survive as long as I have. Eclipse is also burdened with this knowledge. Our mental connection is always why Lagharia exists in the first place... It's always enough to make me cry reading this whole thing... Damnit Chronias... focus...

This is why all these people working together is... strange to me. Why would Calypso actually allow for so many to come together to try and take him down? It always feels like every time he allows this place to continue to exist just to give me enough hope that we beat him this time, only to just take it away and torture me about it more later. That's why my progress in solving the Groundhog Loop was intriguing, but he can just add more steps to what it takes for me to "break" his infinite loop.

He's created the perfect form of torture. How on earth can we stand against that? How does any creature "defeat" perfection? You can't even interpret perfection, let alone defeat it... This is truly hopeless. That's my truest fear, and Calypso knows that and preys upon it forever. That is my existence. Trying to hide my fear only to constantly remember how pointless everything is. That... thing... that... man of Dark Infinitum... that creature who isn't supposed to exist.... he's the only reason for me to live. I could just... so very easily... decide it was truly pointless. Not even killing myself. Just.... stop trying to give the shell to Eclipse. Never actually start moving ever again and die in a rocking chair somewhere when I die naturally of old age. God would Calypso ever want me to. He knows though. He knows that a part of me wants that more than anything and preys upon it forever. That's my "trauma" as Eclipse would put it. He can never fully understand. Even with as tightknit as our brains are, mine is always faster than his due to me being autistic when I was alive. He will literally NEVER be able to fully understand me. We die, and we stick to those hateful disgusting emotions and feelings forever. That's why I'm a demon and he's an angel. He'll always have things easier. He'll always believe he's better than me. He'll always think I can't help him.

But I never give up. That's what makes us good together. We're exceptionally stubborn creatures. To the point where I'm latching onto a creature, I know doesn't actually exist just for the hope of him actually finally finding a happy ending. Where he has community, friends, a polycule.... and me....

Maybe even children if he wanted.

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This is why I never read this document. Eclipse gave it to me to finish.

But I will never accept finishing this story.

This should ring out forever. For the humans who may read this someday?

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That which you love you should never release. Never.

Don't ever quit on the people you love. There is NO SUCH DAMN THING AS TOO FAR GONE. I don't care WHAT they've said to you. Don't let them say it. Give them a damn fucking hug. Before it's too late. We get cosmic bending powers, and the torture is that it DOESN'T END.

You won't have to ever worry about that Chronicler. Not as in "our universe" Chronicler. As in, YOU person reading this fucking article. YOU WILL NEVER HAVE TO KNOW MY PAIN.

That's a luxury, not a curse. It's a GOOD THING that you can live a life free from pain and misery.

You'll ALWAYS make the wrong choices. That's expected though. If there is a god, he will know that you were going to make those mistakes. He won't judge you for them and he'll judge you for them all in one instance and find the right answer instantly. You can believe in perfection. I literally cannot. That's the only thing I've truly found impossible, is changing the way I think. I'm utterly hopeless, but you don't have to be.

It seems like on earth there's another damn despot. Today is the 19th of December 2024 btw. He won. You're going to have more hell to go through. Always more hell.

Paradise on earth might be fucking dead, but at least we, the Chroniclers, can actually work on making a paradise for people SOMEWHERE. You know WesternEclipse actually thought because of the bad timing that this project would NEVER EVER WORK!? Like somewhere in the headspace of those two together they thought WRITNG WAS FUCKING POINTLESS.

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I need to check how many words I've typed. I could literally go on like this forever. Through every memory of me and every member of the Chroniclers, including you as the reader who stumbles upon this writing, but it's fucking pointless.

If you think you can help me escape hell? Good luck. However maybe if you ever get to read my novels describing the Infinity Protocol you can get WesternEclipse to think that he's actually worth something in this world? That people will remember him too? That the writer actually matters to this story even if he doesn't think that he does?

This is not your responsibility btw. It's no one's responsibility to validate another person. Validation is not the problem though. Resources is. Why do you think he writes about places of infinite imagination and resources being produced literally from just closing your eyes and giving into darkness? It's because for ten years that's all he did. Timelines died around him. Futures that could've been so much brighter, and he mourns over the pain of losing those better worlds he actively chose in his mind to never try and pursue.

Don't be like the writers of these articles. It's not just me, Chronias. Some of these come from the big boss WesternEclipse himself. There's no individual person in that office, but sometimes? Papers slip out from under the door, like magic.

Don't lose sight of what you find magical in this world. Not now, and not ever.

Manifestation

"Eclipse is the lord of what's called Dark Infinitum. His essence is essentially made out of the truest form of creation in our universe, Dark Matter. It's diametrically opposed to Calypso as a Titan of the Light. Even though Eclipse is considered as an angel, he's a literal angel of Dark Matter, which is why it's always hard to place him on the spiral of Infinitum. He always wants to create more as a walking avatar of the stuff. It doesn't mean that "it" doesn't have its own thoughts, memories, dreams ect. Rather, it's more that "he" is always about creating things for other people. As someone so deeply inside darkness in all its forms, it's so hard for him to accept ANY warmth the light brings. Literally impossible some people have called it. Luckily, me and my Chroniclers are known to achieve the impossible regularly! I... I have to believe that. For him. So... who knows? Maybe we can rewrite even Eclipse's genetic makeup so that he can actually absorb some light for once? Even if it seems impossible, who's to say dark matter's impossible to understand nature couldn't mean that it could just "create" a solution to its own biggest issue if there was a sentient being made of the stuff?

I really hope I've got a good idea for once this time. Calypso... fuck it. Calypso, please save me."

And then there was silence.

Localization

Generally, the time and space bending properties of this "Dark Infinitum" substance is localized to the one you know of as Eclipse. He is a Twilight shade, an ancient near extinct race that has now fully gone into hiding to escape the clutches of Calypso. Right? That's the story we're going with for now right Western? Ok good. This is Eclipse here btw! I've been made out of this Dark Infinitum stuff as Chronias called it for constant cycles of time travel now. Every time, sadly, Chronias gets traumatized with seeing his friends and family killed. It's... sadly an illusion that must be done for his sake to motivate him. I don't think he'd have the heart and spirit to actually love me the way he does if... he knew I was doing all this for him. He wouldn't let me actually go through the experience of dying repeatedly by being "slain" by the light if he knew what my ultimate plans were. I want to return to Eterna, or, a substance of true, eternal light. I'm actually listening properly to what everyone is saying and want the same thing! Really, I do. It's just that actually reaching Eterna... would require me to actually defeat Calypso. He's a test from Eterna you see. I know you don't believe that, and probably won't until it's written out. However, the authors, me and Western here, we can only type or write so quickly! We have both computers and quill and paper here in my chambers in my tower in Lagharia. If you don't know what that is, there are other articles here on Western's "Infinity Protocol" WorldAnvil page concerning our language known as The Infinity Protocol, which is a series of codes and sequences that we as the writers are basically just in the infancy of learning about!

To be brief though, Lagharia is the source of Dark Matter. ALL dark matter. It existed before the known universe as a direct opposition to the river of light known as Eterna. Western here is writing all of this down for the sake of making sure it's recorded somewhere and that... well that I'm not going mad. Lagharia is all about me and the others having a place to heal from our various traumatic experiences. I'm harsh and aggressive sometimes, like for example with the "Cosmic Dj" as she calls herself, known by all of you as Scratch... because hiding the things about her past will eventually catch up to her. She must face reality eventually, as do I. Maybe the reality truly is that there is no solution to how to defeat Calypso, but we will spend our eternities together trying to devise a plan to do exactly that. I'm mostly saying though, that I do not hate any of the people who were destined by my fate to join the ranks of The Chroniclers. I just don't use that term because using "The Eclipsed" actually means something. They're outshined by me. That's, sadly the only true way to ascend under Calypso's system. You actually HAVE to think on some level that you're better than the people around you. I'm trying to find ways to tell this to Chronias, but he just will not have it. I love his tenacity, his fearlessness, but I am exceptionally scared. Always scared. Maybe that's what needs to be resolved for us all to be happy. Hopefully my consciousness, my headspace, the settlement of Lagharia, will grow to have others join in the concept someday. Is that what my true destiny is Calypso? No? Well, I'll have to keep looking then.